10/7/2008 7:54:38 PM
Ann, this is a love letter and it is on my mind. We have spent our entire life together. To me and in my eyes, I have never laid eyes on such a beautiful woman and with such a brilliant mind. Over the years, I have given you the gift of my scientific mind and you have not once treaded on that fragile build, always giving back and giving more. I never asked or never cajoled any expectation from you because I felt you were my best friend and had your own life. We were connected and on the most intimate levels but I still saw you as a best friend and what we were doing was so much more than the fact we were in love. Maybe I had been wrong but I wanted to marry before putting down any of my thoughts. As my best friend, I nearly wept to you about how difficult and desperate I had felt with all the problems of being attacked. Most especially was our financial situation and I remembered you constantly telling me how rich you were and how much money you had. In turn, I would ask you to simply wait for me and how I would out due you one day… one day.
I no longer want to out due you; I just want to surrender to you and our best friends’ relationship. We had financial problems and now it feels like a tremendous burden has been lifted and my dreams of marrying are coming true even while we are being attacked and prisoners. I was so happy with my best friend before. It was like a real best friend who always understood and who always would play with you. You spent day and night with me and never turned me away. Now I find out I am married to my best friend and only friend because she does not and will not let go of our love regardless of how dangerous this world becomes for her. I can live with my own dangers; I cannot force you to choose that for your life while I enjoy myself so much with you, my best friend and only friend in this world. That sums it up, if you get teary eyed then that is how it will be. I used to chide you about beating you in the end and now I am not sure if I did or not, it doesn’t feel like it.
We had a lot of financial problems and I had given up and lost faith. I did give up on you and I felt I was a failure because I could not defend you. There is too much danger and I did not want you exposed to this as I had told you over and over. Now our life and our family have been struck with personal tragedy and maybe more to come. It has caused me to explore my deepest emotions and I am sure you have also explored your deepest feelings even if you deny it as just being a good spouse. I celebrate our journey in life but despise the world we live in for this tragedy and burden it has beset on us. You have no idea how happy I truly am. You have no idea how proud I am of you and what you have done. You have no idea how monumental it makes me feel to be with you finally and be able to stand proud and to reclaim our life, one stolen from us by terrorists.
Maybe our love with teach others the importance of love and family. To be touched by it and enriched living in it also. Maybe it will encourage people to appreciate their spouses and to treat them well and with the dignity they deserve and expect. Maybe it will make them feel the hardships and the journey of being man and woman, to dream together and to live one life worth telling and to be truly blessed by both pain and happy in this theater of the absurd and seemingly pain.
Most of all, you have no idea how much I love you Ann and how you have not only become my best and only friend, but the person who wakes up in my bed and smiles back as much or harder than me. This is my best friend who is not really my best friend but much more. That is priceless and worth the price of admission no matter how much more we must suffer for being put in a world where the devil finds their spirit drowning in their own blood. I am and still that man you began life with Ann, I still am just as you are still also in our bliss together.
Alex
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
ANN AND I ON INTERACIAL DATING: WE DO NOT EVEN SEE RACE BUT WE KNOW WE HAVE A PROBLEM WITH CERTAIN ONES
10/1/2008 8:24:31 PM
Do you see what would happen if they come out of hiding or get to anxious? They get put in their place for misbehaving. A public flogging while we get private floggings by kidnappers and terrorists.
If you study videos of Ann, then you may have come across things which appear odd but may not be to her, only I and she know. Until 2008 I have never watched any videos or performance by her as the Hollywood rule goes. I am too close to her to watch and have never seen one appearance until 2008. She has made comments about interracial relationships and how people freak out. She neglects to mention or tell everyone she has been and is in an interracial relationship.
Understand, we do not see it as interracial but equals. Race problems are an equality issue. Ann and I are true partners; we do not have this problem with seeing our self as interracial because we are equal partners. Ann does not see me as Asian and I do not see her as Caucasian. We are nearly identical. Ann is my voice. We are identical except in gender. There is very little if no difference. My sexual appeal is the same. My games are the same. How I view people is the same. You cannot hate on me and hate on her at the same time but this is happening with the stalkers and we know who they are. They got a major problem on their hands.
On interracial relationships or relationships in general there is a serious problem with these freaks. They feel invited or can come in our home or nation. The mind of an illegal alien almost, they never ask. If they have problem or need to know, ask. Instead, they linger and expect or are entitled to some special treatment. It is some sort of mute or retardation where you are not able to ask the right questions only the wrong ones because you deserve to die. Ann and I have nothing to do with black politics but they are constantly approaching us. That is the same mentality of the white liberals. IT HAS CAUSED US TO HATE OTHERS TREMENDOUSLY.
This is why she is “Miss Saigon” or said that. Her story also sounds very similar to many which were the result of the Vietnam War where families were separated or worse, tragedy. She admires most the will and strength of the people who fought in that war and honors them tremendously. Ann even speaks Vietnamese but has a very limited vocabulary. Her accent is perfect and surprisingly indistinguishable.
One such case is the old Politically Incorrect episode when she is wearing the eye patch. Any good sniper will know what a shooters eye is. If you are without a shooters eye, you wear a patch to compensate. This is not about shooting. Back in the early 1990s, Ann and I used to study spy cases and I was being taught by some old Cold Warriors a few tricks. We came across several spy hunters who wore eye patches and I would joke about it. I said it was hip and chic, but wondered if they were real or for only fashion. There is your answer.
There is a lot more and I come across them all the time. It is ten years worth of videos and she and I will have to sit down and document it all and you will see some incredible stuff. Recently, Ann has been dressing up and showing how “liberated” she is finally. You will see her differently now and not as reserved to suggest she is interested. This change also occurred in 2005 after prison. She looks healthy, not frail and worried sick, more relaxed, and different. Back in the 1990s, I had a lot of muscles.
People would stare and literally drool at the body I had and how shiny and tan I was. It was from years of 3-6 hours a day work outs and nutrition. People had just never seen anything like it and how the vesicular development I had. We were very quiet and snobby at the time because of the attention and over attention in public, an air of arrogance to suggest “not interested at all.”
What is most amazing is how Ann has not given up on this marriage and partnership. First it is interracial and there are so many problems. Second, it cost her natural birthing problem bearing children. Third, the danger was immense and she was told that they were not playing around and to call it quits. It is very surprising to burden oneself with love while not opting for any other man or vowing how no other man will ever have her. In other words, Ann has been with one and only one man in her entire life and she has vowed to that number. She said she would join a convent if something happened back in 1989 when we first met.
As far as life long friends or partners, that is a mystery. There are so many people who claim a few days, weeks, even months and make it a lifetime. I think it is fair to say she really does not have any lifelong associations or even companionship. Both Ann and I spend so much time together that we really do not talk to friends or have any close ones. Family members are just emails and chit chat. We really do not have any life beyond me and her but we have a lot of problems in our life and more looming problems which prevent us from having that fulfilling one we expected. We are and were hanging on to a future together as soon as the problems go away so we can have a future.
After twenty years it is nothing but uneventful but it is the most rewarding situation outside of this stalker problem and peeping tom problem we have now. We have massive problems with stalkers and how close they are to her. They do not want to come forward because they wish to keep it ongoing and make her life worse and worse. That is the classical stalker, they do not seek an answer but is so bizarre they do not want to get out of the life of someone else that does not want them there or is trying to catch them and punish them. They have watched and they know both Ann and I are together but could not prove a love connection. They still cannot and that is the problem with a stalker, she is asking why they are there.
The local authorities are some representative and say how they are investigating internship or some teacher student relationship which is absurd. First they pound us, then they try to investigate us, now they tell us we do not know right from wrong, they hide information and evidence to exonerate us, they hide evidence that incriminates them, and they lie profusely about what their business is about or why they must make an excuse to justify why they are in our life. That is the fundamental problem; they are manipulating and controlling our life.
That is the classical megalomaniacal serial killer, stalker, and pervert or molester excuse; nothing happened. The word is also consent but there is so much corruption they will problem get away with this even if it is near rape and peeping tom behavior. They say they are or were never interested just checking to see if we were behaving. We need a military force to beat the ugly out of them and teach them a clean lesson about this type of behavior. Somebody has to take the initiative or leadership if anybody, it is beyond an outrage.
Cyber Warfare HQ
Do you see what would happen if they come out of hiding or get to anxious? They get put in their place for misbehaving. A public flogging while we get private floggings by kidnappers and terrorists.
If you study videos of Ann, then you may have come across things which appear odd but may not be to her, only I and she know. Until 2008 I have never watched any videos or performance by her as the Hollywood rule goes. I am too close to her to watch and have never seen one appearance until 2008. She has made comments about interracial relationships and how people freak out. She neglects to mention or tell everyone she has been and is in an interracial relationship.
Understand, we do not see it as interracial but equals. Race problems are an equality issue. Ann and I are true partners; we do not have this problem with seeing our self as interracial because we are equal partners. Ann does not see me as Asian and I do not see her as Caucasian. We are nearly identical. Ann is my voice. We are identical except in gender. There is very little if no difference. My sexual appeal is the same. My games are the same. How I view people is the same. You cannot hate on me and hate on her at the same time but this is happening with the stalkers and we know who they are. They got a major problem on their hands.
On interracial relationships or relationships in general there is a serious problem with these freaks. They feel invited or can come in our home or nation. The mind of an illegal alien almost, they never ask. If they have problem or need to know, ask. Instead, they linger and expect or are entitled to some special treatment. It is some sort of mute or retardation where you are not able to ask the right questions only the wrong ones because you deserve to die. Ann and I have nothing to do with black politics but they are constantly approaching us. That is the same mentality of the white liberals. IT HAS CAUSED US TO HATE OTHERS TREMENDOUSLY.
This is why she is “Miss Saigon” or said that. Her story also sounds very similar to many which were the result of the Vietnam War where families were separated or worse, tragedy. She admires most the will and strength of the people who fought in that war and honors them tremendously. Ann even speaks Vietnamese but has a very limited vocabulary. Her accent is perfect and surprisingly indistinguishable.
One such case is the old Politically Incorrect episode when she is wearing the eye patch. Any good sniper will know what a shooters eye is. If you are without a shooters eye, you wear a patch to compensate. This is not about shooting. Back in the early 1990s, Ann and I used to study spy cases and I was being taught by some old Cold Warriors a few tricks. We came across several spy hunters who wore eye patches and I would joke about it. I said it was hip and chic, but wondered if they were real or for only fashion. There is your answer.
There is a lot more and I come across them all the time. It is ten years worth of videos and she and I will have to sit down and document it all and you will see some incredible stuff. Recently, Ann has been dressing up and showing how “liberated” she is finally. You will see her differently now and not as reserved to suggest she is interested. This change also occurred in 2005 after prison. She looks healthy, not frail and worried sick, more relaxed, and different. Back in the 1990s, I had a lot of muscles.
People would stare and literally drool at the body I had and how shiny and tan I was. It was from years of 3-6 hours a day work outs and nutrition. People had just never seen anything like it and how the vesicular development I had. We were very quiet and snobby at the time because of the attention and over attention in public, an air of arrogance to suggest “not interested at all.”
What is most amazing is how Ann has not given up on this marriage and partnership. First it is interracial and there are so many problems. Second, it cost her natural birthing problem bearing children. Third, the danger was immense and she was told that they were not playing around and to call it quits. It is very surprising to burden oneself with love while not opting for any other man or vowing how no other man will ever have her. In other words, Ann has been with one and only one man in her entire life and she has vowed to that number. She said she would join a convent if something happened back in 1989 when we first met.
As far as life long friends or partners, that is a mystery. There are so many people who claim a few days, weeks, even months and make it a lifetime. I think it is fair to say she really does not have any lifelong associations or even companionship. Both Ann and I spend so much time together that we really do not talk to friends or have any close ones. Family members are just emails and chit chat. We really do not have any life beyond me and her but we have a lot of problems in our life and more looming problems which prevent us from having that fulfilling one we expected. We are and were hanging on to a future together as soon as the problems go away so we can have a future.
After twenty years it is nothing but uneventful but it is the most rewarding situation outside of this stalker problem and peeping tom problem we have now. We have massive problems with stalkers and how close they are to her. They do not want to come forward because they wish to keep it ongoing and make her life worse and worse. That is the classical stalker, they do not seek an answer but is so bizarre they do not want to get out of the life of someone else that does not want them there or is trying to catch them and punish them. They have watched and they know both Ann and I are together but could not prove a love connection. They still cannot and that is the problem with a stalker, she is asking why they are there.
The local authorities are some representative and say how they are investigating internship or some teacher student relationship which is absurd. First they pound us, then they try to investigate us, now they tell us we do not know right from wrong, they hide information and evidence to exonerate us, they hide evidence that incriminates them, and they lie profusely about what their business is about or why they must make an excuse to justify why they are in our life. That is the fundamental problem; they are manipulating and controlling our life.
That is the classical megalomaniacal serial killer, stalker, and pervert or molester excuse; nothing happened. The word is also consent but there is so much corruption they will problem get away with this even if it is near rape and peeping tom behavior. They say they are or were never interested just checking to see if we were behaving. We need a military force to beat the ugly out of them and teach them a clean lesson about this type of behavior. Somebody has to take the initiative or leadership if anybody, it is beyond an outrage.
Cyber Warfare HQ
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- My name is Alex. I am the father of both cyber and satellite warfare. I was retired from the US Army at a very young age. Life has been grand I think. I love a girl named "GOO" who I have not seen in over 7 years, I hope to find her again one day. My book, which may end up several books is called "Cyber and Satellite Warfare, By Way of Insanity" will be out soon. It is the last book anyone will need to read. They began as military manuals and transgressed to just a good read. I am the real and authentic father of both cyber and satellite warfare and this is as real as it will ever get. What you are reading are only several chosen chapters out of hundreds of chapters. Specifically, this book was written between 1989 and 1998 while in college and while in my mid twenties. I am in my mid 30s now. I am not sure if I will write a biography, I want to wait and include someone in it, it is boring now. CLICK ON FULL PROFILE FOR MORE READING. Right now we are trying to lock them up and issue the death penalty on all of them.