DEAR ANN - YOU HAVE TO ACCEPT SOME BLAME AND ACCOUNTABILITY

12/21/2008 10:20:59 PM once again Ann has asked for a chance and said how stressed out she is about the whole matter. She also says she will clean it up and fix it. She just does not know how. She also says that Sean was lying about being more than friends. However, what she does is upsetting me but she shows no evidence or effort to reform or fix the matter. They are growing and moving on her steps and she must cut off the aid while we gather evidence to stop them. She refuses to fight them and grows it bigger making it harder for investigators. She is showing no sign of distance and encourages them to fight on and to the end; by exchanging presents and having them claim to be more than friends or having exclusive access, she is telling them they are not kicked out and will not be prosecuted; thus, will not step down or cooperate.

Ann Coulter is the source of this and when she takes that step, they also and she refuses to cut off aid even if they abducted both myself and her. She refuses to indicate to them she will cut off and pull out of all agreements and relations so they stop the attacks, kidnapping, and harassment tactics. We now have to pressure Ann while she begs and cries about how stressed and sorry she feels for the entire matter; it is intolerant and a failure. She must come up with a new solution instead of playing ball and wishing to be excused of having played ball with a terror network. We sent them in disarray and she will bring them back with more aid and comfort. She must show anger to those behind this and some danger of losing or being caught. If the investigators and the authority over the matter show injuries by her actions, it is worth considering if support is being asked or some honor granted. She cannot seek approval and partnership from those behind this after they are identified as a terror network.

• How difficult was it to take down the pictures which caused the attacks or harassment? Six months of attacks and antagonizing and the “fantasy” pictures and “more than friends” situation was never addressed. Meanwhile, those behind it claimed it was threatening to them because the pictures prove it. The lack of action proved they were right. She was ordered to take down the pictures which have created the stigma she is having an affair within one week and being used to suggest she is more than friends. Sean says they were more than friends and survived on each other, the next Ann says that is not true and he is lying. Is this not the problem or are these pictures on her site not deliberately the problem? So she has one week to show some progress and reform effort. She has to prove she has some braking system in her mind and is not going to miss this insanity she is very satisfied about.
• When your house is in disrepair, you have to fix it and remodel it. If it involves her private life, then it is going to be very hard to have others fix it. If someone burned it down, then you cannot fix it yourself. If you kiss a man and he says he is your boyfriend, then your spouse will assume he is. You cannot say it is a pretend kiss and argue with the husband it is or is not.
• She was given thirty days to stop these attacks on me and this idea she is more than friends with Sean Hannity or RonDog. Both of them claim they had get together’s with her, exchanged presents and gifts, she is more than friends, they have exclusive access, she gives her most secret books and career to only them, and Ann gets ordered around or is their possession. After this thirty days and if she does not reform or show any effort, by default she is. If she does not fight it, then she is their property or their girl.
• I told her no more stunts. We cannot keep investigating how much it grows and how big she grew it. The quality of work was so poor and so bad she claims that she desperately needs me and I am scratching my head at what she did, what they say, what she tells me, and why she would even take her life this far off course. Why is the only person fighting her battles me? They are losing staff as is, she will rebuild them if she helps them. If she is a defense lawyer than she will loose all support and all morale. We will not and cannot share power with this terror network so there is no need to partner with them until this is over. She is claiming she is willing to contribute to their fight before anything is fixed or resolved.
• Her last stunt before Christmas made both of our Christmases the worst ever and she still went forward with the events which caused it. If and had she been repentant, then she would have not gone forward and not have done what she did if she was truly sorry. You do not do things to upset others, feel it is no big threat, sit there for days, and claim you made an effort when no results or changes have been made. The idea was she needed reinforcements and support do to a plot, not play ball with the plotters. It is unrealistic as to what progress and what significant result she can produce.
• If this unrealistic solution or lack of withdraw is a real effort on her part; then the question is why she would even waste her time crying and begging for forgiveness about her private life? The only person who she needs to apologize for is I and she cannot join us based on the utter mess and the total lack of management skill she has shown. She indicates she is a rival and the relationship with the terror network is in full swing and still alive. The problem is how it is growing with us and overwhelming our ability or investigation. It makes us look retarded and morale to go dead. Ann has a devastating effect on morale and has been asked to leave and she refuses; but the problem with morale is never addressed; she only wants to talk about it and shuts everything around her out. This is a clear sign she needs help and her mind has shut down, a completely dysfunctional relation because they are living beyond the edge and the presence of an idiot.
• They will use her steps to become operational and have. That power is used back on us and will stifle the investigators or keep us in disarray. The mere idea she is promoting them is enough of a disturbance to remove her immediately from the case; if she is promoting them for free or did they give her some reason to become more operational? She has to stop aid and comfort immediately and show she has some sort of inner strength and quality; it appears to signal an unbalance idiot.
• If Ann is an idiot who has to be told what to do, then this is one thing. If she has severe problems and needs help then it is another. However, it is not a fit and not excusable no matter how much she wishes to talk about it. It is evidence and a warning signal of what is to come, she is their defense lawyer and trying to broker some deal while we have them crushed, pinned, and on the run. If they move with her and she lets them with her, they will never step down and may never stop. They no more will step down than she will stop or put the brakes on. Is she their defense lawyer or a conspirator because the crime is so grave she wants a reward or medal for her work? She refuses to give up on them and they refuse to step down while using her partnership to their benefit.
• Her work was not powerful enough to stop them, it upset them. They are now in disarray; she cannot give them the strength and exchange gifts or be more than friends as they have claimed. Outside of swinging at them, she will keep angering everyone and the effect on her private life is a clear signal how deliberate and how weak her story is. If she wants her story to be stronger, then she must show some indication of how strong it is. Her story is very weak and she destroyed our morale because of her weakness. She does not have the proper eye, she takes orders and is fed intelligence, and it will collapse on her which is the pain she is expressing now. She is in crisis and need and must act now more than ever, not ruin the momentum and morale by adding to her endless fault. She says she has a right to stay and has a right to an apology. She says she was telling the truth and to accept her “as is” and it is too late to be doing this.
• You do not invite a hit man who has a contract on your husband for dinner, exchange presents with them, email them daily, or make them feel they have something special and can gain if the husband is gone. You do not go into public and profess your friendship or partnership which gives them exclusive access to the masters of the situation. That is a pretend love triangle but the injuries are very real; it is no longer a pretend situation. When the injuries are real then the pretend must stop. Ann will make any and all changes in her life if she wishes to keep these partnerships and close links. She must decide which links and which links she wants to keep; so far she did none of this but got all assistance and benefited greatly by pretending with short term partnerships and threatening long term ones. She must make any and all changes or at least show some result to keep the long term ones.
• Display or outline some logical strategy so we can move into position or do not trip over each other. So far her strategy was based on intelligence fed to her and that assistance must be cut off if it is being used back on us. There is no excuse for this total lack of strategy. There is no excuse for any of the poor quality of work and the lack of actions or results. Nobody feels good why make the terrorist network feel better by assisting her? Why give them our strategy and have them not step down because they are following her and claim to be more than friends and ex boyfriends, seduced them or pretend love triangle or not? Love triangles are used against enemies and now being used on the masters of the situation.
• Her work and public statements have made them feel so good, they confronted us about her ongoing grants to them which they claimed were a romance and love interests. They demanded we provide some proof they were wrong or face another attack. The evidence provided was so weak and took so long it was appalling and inexcusable. You cannot use a fly swatter on a puppy that is now a full grown dog that is obedient and trained to attack.
• This pretend and these half lies made this terror network delusional but did provide valuable information. This was all we got out of it, information, nothing else. The information was not enough but it did interrupt them and make them fight each other. Her work was not that valuable or as valuable because it was exploited and easily deniable because of the total lack of management and lawlessness. There was too much pretend it was easy to slip by those imaginary barriers created while the problem got bigger and bigger. So long as they could lie out of the pretend situations, they were immune from prosecution but were very embarrassed by the entire confusion. This confusion allows some to rebuild due to the ongoing investigations and time allowances. They had and will move under her cover and protections which originates from the masters and have no right to such.

Intel has suggested she is insecure, has a psychological problem, shows a sense of idiotic or unrealistic goals, is too old to take such chances, has an major attitude problem, publicly shows no sense of repentance, has not enough existing support to be asking for more, is not thinking long term and fighting for long term results but claiming to be while in a stalemate, says she has suffered enough, does not show any sign of anger on why they destroyed her or her spouse. She must show how it affected her if any. She must show a sign that she was affected by the matter and was not a conspirator of this terror network. If this terror network claims she was more than friends while she seduced them and fails to take the necessary actions, she will be cut off and nobody can substantiate her claims. Nobody will ever know or find out what exactly occurred or if she was behind it all. The only people who will know are those who claim she is theirs, she was more than friends, and they were granted special and exclusive rights to her life. She cannot go about carefree while we put this together or while we investigate it. She cannot act as if nothing happened and it had no impact on her life. This is how she stole the morale while we were piecing it together.


Intel says she lied to survive how is she qualified for assistance or help? If she messed up badly she must show some fight and some effort why she deserves assistance in this matter rather than taking one step with us and having the terror network take one step also and advance into a better position or higher ground to strike out at the investigators. She obviously does not have an eye on this matter and cannot be of any help as she claims so that assistance can rescue her. This shows toughness and fearlessness but no leadership or initiative. Change and action is very difficult under these conditions. She claims as long as she is with me she has nothing to change and nothing to worry about; the end result will always be the same. There are limits on poor quality work, there are thresholds on pretending.

This was why she was almost fired as a partner in 2002 for pussyfooting around the matter while an extraction never came; only the attacks and imprisonment. An extraction should have come before this but there was no support whatsoever. It is hard to excuse her and let her stay long term unless she pulls a crazy or insane stunt to make up for the total lack of support and the feeling of being abandoned in battle. This is how she proves things. She shows no love and then tries to restore it with some insane stunt which nearly kills her. She claims her crime is she is in love and this is how she proves herself. It is a problem with the brakes, there is no balance or harmony with her brakes but she wishes to make known she is doing her best even if it looks like such poor quality. This arrives five or ten years later and we just do not have the time or does she has the special quality to pull such an awful way to apologize for wishing to stay in love. Intel says she shows sign of low self esteem, needs attention, and is plagued with regret and guilt because it battles expand so vastly due to poor management, dangerous situations, and limited abilities.

This extraction issue happened once before and the feeling of abandonment was won back, it cannot happen again because it took five years to win back last time and a complete mess and disaster. Instead of moving on or ending this torment, she chooses to create a giant mess. It is a difficult call but the only crime is falling in love and loving someone. You have to have some support while being attacked and in a very fierce fight. You cannot live on 400 a month while fighting the biggest terrorist and communist network on these shores nor can your partner and life partner runs around and gives them exclusive access to her and their life so they fall in love with her or plot to kill her also. The level of professional quality is so poor it is embarrassing. It makes you feel like a piece of trash and worthless.

It is a hard call but both of us may loose twenty years of work to the same people who claim to be more than friends, has exclusive access, are in love with us, and exploit the matter to gain full control over the nation and the world. It is a feeling of all the reasons in the world to let go and then the inability to let go and it is from Ann; not from this end. We do not have the time or the pretend ability to allow this mode of understanding to stall another five years before a major breakthrough is produced. The delay and the stalling of this extraction is not wanted or desired but it is a stalemate and a battle for acceptance afterwards. It pisses me off and throws Ann into a fit of tears while she pretends she is unaffected by the whole matter and has total control of the situation when she has none. Being in love with this particular woman is the most painful thing you will ever experience while she feels it is special and ever lasting. She feels her work is very special and it can be if she acts a little quicker or works faster to resolve the problems before they grow so large it is nearly impossible to fix. It is the same complaint the government is facing at this time and the same feelings, the exact love hate sense with the government. Exactly how intelligent are these people and what is their malfunction if any?

If we take one step and she follows and they also take one step, then she is at fault for letting them and telling the public she is their partner; it is so crazy. If she takes one step closer to us and the terror network follows because she allowed it, then it is her fault for bringing them closer and increasing the risk. She refused to fight and she told them to attack. They will and have attacked obviously because she should have done more to prevent the horrific situation or experience. If they destroy her husband or partner and she refuses to fight them by solidifying the link and destroying the partnership; then she is at fault with no excuse. They burned her house down and she wants to work with them and that did not help anybody especially herself. She is obviously in a hazardous situation and had been cut off of aid repeatedly. Luckily, someone had a clear head and was not afflicted by this brainless inability to put the brakes on. It was a complete sense of lawlessness and pretends and those implicated were begging to stay with her while she took steps with us and had been.

If they have a plot on her and she is fearful of it, then the return to it suggests she fabricated it and used it as a political stunt. If you stick your head in a lion and the lion almost bites your head off, then if you stick our head in it next time and it does bite; who is to blame? It is getting more vicious because of her. This lack of action, lack of results, and ongoing partnership with a terror network proves they were correct or right; their exclusive access was threatened by an outside party, spouse or not. We cannot have an idiot running this investigation or on our staff to keep their war and revolution ongoing or alive. If she is their partner and if they are following her, then she has to be gone along with them so long as some clear sign is not present. Neither they nor her can claim to be the masters of the situation while following us in this dangerous and deranged state. We are being trailed by a phantom and she is leading that phantom closer and right to us so they can strike out and have while this state of lawlessness was perpetuating. If a terror network is following her and close to her taking the same steps, she has to step down now; we have them pinned and beat. If she is bringing them closer to strike then we must take action on her. If they are exploiting her to control the situation, she must be pushed back for being a greedy mate and helper who will expand this exploitation of the masters.

DEAR ANN COULTER AND SEAN HANNITY (AFTER THE HANNITY SHOW ON 12/18)

12/18/2008 12:12:18 AM you know what, it is obviously clear, Ann really really likes Hannity and she lied to me about hating Hannity. She is giving him a copy of her book and nobody else which I had warned her about this 10 year friendship and them kissing on tape. Nobody else is getting this access to her life and on tape she has kissed him. In honesty, I think she truly likes Hannity but she is trying to please me by telling me she hates him and he tried to marry her. I was close to marrying another girl so she may have retaliated on me due to being hurt. If things were different, I can promise Ann she would be gone in two weeks; two. She can then openly profess how Sean has exclusive access to her and how all these men see her as a media whore. She gives them what they want when they want and I witnessed this over and over. Either one of them is lying or both or Ann is gone in two weeks, so it won’t matter. Ann told me it was all lies, Sean said he had something, they are all unreliable. Now Ann says only Hannity has exclusive access and carries this on and on. I cannot tell is she is trying to prosecute him or say “do not disturb” but I am sure she is thinking about me and our better life of quality. I hope I get my commission and make her attitude about this sober up quickly.

They want to play a chicken game, so be it. One of them I sly, the most to lose is Ann. Hannity gets his girl however if it is worth lying about. I wrote what Ann told me and what Hannity told me. Hannity is not gone in two weeks though. Sean I am sorry, I was wrong. Ann, you have two weeks. It is either one of you or both of you; that should change your attitude. There is nothing to suggest I can be mad at her or need to be but I am just sick of this and she obviously does not need me. Sean has a credible complaint on Ann, who is telling the truth is not known. If all these men have exclusive access as they calmly claim, then she cannot plead with me and cry about how hurt she is. She obviously has turned this god damn game on me and telling me Sean did have exclusive access to her private life. He is obsessed with her and every word she says. I told her, if she turns this operative and field operative game on me, I will end it immediately because it is nasty and you cannot tell who is telling the truth. Again, there is nothing solid, only this game of chicken between Sean Hannity and Ann Coulter. I warned Ann repeatedly about this and gave her a deadline regardless of who lied. Do not turn a field operative game on the one who gave her a lot, taught her, and really helped her reputation.

I do feel she used Sean but I also am convinced she gives him exclusive access to her life; then tried to cover something up by telling me she hates them. Ann told me the relationship with Sean but why she treats him like an ex boyfriend needs no explanation. She would be gone in two weeks; end of game and issue, end of any suspicion. I told Ann, Ann why would you have a 10 year friend and kiss him on stage and tour with him? Now you give him exclusive access to your life and even I do not have a copy of your book and I need to find a girl and do the same thing. Any girls out there who read this and wants to apply two weeks let me know! Hannity has a point. She is a media whore so she treats these guys just like her boyfriend, not many have kissed her. Ann should have avoided this matter and let Hannity hang himself with the chicken game. Ann told me she never let Hannity take her out or have dinner…? They are in a chicken game with each other and both of them will be history in two weeks. After Ann cried and pleaded with me, I do not want to work with her. Hannity was not lying about exclusive access and he kissed her on stage which she lied about but said he wanted a date and did not get one so he would divorce his wife…? Ann says he was tricking her only for sex.

THESE TWO HAVE EXCLUSIVE ACCESS TO EACH OTHER NOT EVEN I AM ALLOWED TO HAVE AND IT HAS BEEN KNOWN FOR YEARS. SO ANN WAS ROMANTICALLY INVOLVED AND DID… THIS WAS WHY HANNITY WANTED TO OFFER HER TWO KIDS AND MARRIAGE. But the odd thing is nothing has surfaced, only Sean being quiet and Ann telling me how she hates him etc… Hannity says it was her admission! 12/18/2008 12:29:13 AM Man is a freaking mess and a total liar, good thing Hannity told me she was lying; but she admitted he was given exclusive access to her life and I do not wish to know the rest or how many others. Let’s just say, I do not want to know or wish to know less get stuck with it. So a lot of people knew and she was not able to lie or hide it but one is playing chicken with the other. Hannity wishes to have Ann “imply” he had an affair? Or is Ann trying to say “how long are you going to play this and keep it going?” I say let the two argue it themselves and destroy each other. However, I reported what Ann told me and how she said nothing was going on now she gives him exclusive access while with me? Why doesn’t she just choose him? If she was romantically involved with him more than friends, why doesn’t she just tell me the truth and end it? Why play a chicken game where one of them is lying or both of them?

Ann if you read this, I warned you about 15 days ago you were on thin ice and to not continue this game on me. You play this game with someone else and only with enemies, not me. It is junk and I do not want to deal with poor managers and bad quality. This is as bad as quality as you can possibly get. I wrote you and asked you why you would be friends with Sean for over ten years, travel around with him, and kiss him; then tell me some other story about how obsessed he is and how he offered you marriage. Well, go for it girl… and go for it Sean! You win. Ann wins. I win. She is gone in two weeks. Oh, her attitude sucks also. After I warn her, she goes and gives Sean exclusive access to her life; and expects me to clean up her mess and junk. If I can replace you in two weeks, you are gone Ann. Based on what Ann said, she is gone in two weeks for playing chicken regardless if Sean was lying. That is how you deal with two slick willies.

I honestly feel Sean has a case and a reason to feel you are flirting and are in some Trieste with him. Sean has been telling me this also and I see it now. I do not want any more of this exclusive access or to hear about any more about it. The thirty days has not expired yet. Ann, you and Sean are in a chicken game and the junk and poor quality is going to end; it is one of you or both of you decide. Who is emailing naked pictures; what was that about? I am sorry Ann, but I know how field operatives are and how unreliable they can be. You turned this game on me now. You are in the trenches with men and they have exclusive access, I was not there, but I know how to deal with what you told me. If Sean is lying, then he is gone. He already said he was waiting to be fired and knew this. It is stupid how you two piss your career and private life or marriage away for exclusive access. This also applies to Ann and Sean knows how much exclusive access I have. He was not able to give me one intimate detail or suggest it. Ann is guilty of playing this game with her private life also, trust me.

IT DID SOUND AS IF SHE WAS PROTECTING HIM AND SAYING HE HAD EXCLUSIVE ACCESS BUT WOULD NOT SAY WHAT IT MEANT. EVEN I HAVE BEEN KEPT AWAY FROM THIS BUT SHE SAID IT WAS ALL A LIE FROM SEAN. IT SOUNDED LIKE SHE WAS PROTECTING HIM AND TELLING ME ANOTHER STORY. THIS IS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT WHEN I SAY "FIELD OPERATIVES." ANN IS 50 YEARS OLD AND IF SHE LOSES HER MARRIAGE, SHE WILL NOT FIND LOVE AGAIN, COMPANIONSHIP YES, LOVE OF HER LIFE, NEVER AGAIN. THIS IS WHAT I MEAN WHEN I SAY THE PROBLEM WITH FIELD OPERATIVES.

DEAR ANN, WHY I AM SO IRRITATED BY THE WHOLE MATTER AND YOU!

12/17/2008 9:55:33 PM Dear Ann Coulter; sweetheart, if you turn your game on me and on our private life; then I will try to trump it by ending it immediately. There is nothing at this time and nothing has surfaced which suggests you turned this open ended game on me or our love life. You said I was unfairly crucifying you because you had deliberately tried to destroy your enemies as your political enemies tried to destroy you as you were stopping my kidnapping. Now it is our kidnapping, not just mine. Your attitude and lifestyle was very controversial and debilitated if not paralyzed their efforts to destroy you and that deliberate attempt capitalized on open opportunities. It also had a very bad affect on your personal life so I hope my anger, disgust, and the acknowledgement of a big gap in our life sobers you up. Do not bring that open ended game into my life and our romance.

I am juggling fifty things at this time to be worrying about the both of us. Undercover work is fine, keep it away from our life and how I have to chase it down or dig for evidence to figure out if you turned that game on us or on me. There is nothing to suggest anybody is close enough to me to turn that game on me. There is no evidence or any situation which suggests you did this but if it surfaces or if someone catches you blatantly lying; it will suggest you abused your professional powers to hurt who you love and are terrified with leaving you. I worry about your attitude, this gap in our private life you have not cleared up, and the denial of reality where nothing is actually what it seems. Your record is perfect but you already admitted you had messed up. How badly is not known at this time. I do not like how you have managed this also and your “la de da” attitude there are no problems and nothing going on. They turned on me when you blew your cover and I got torn apart; the same with you.

Women like to play this semen search game and unfortunately I do not. If I hear about it, then you will have some problems. If I get my commission or are brought back on duty because I am the only one who really knows what he is doing; then I will be strong enough and have some choices in this matter. If you had something to do with it, then you capitalized on it well. I saw it as them striking out on you by using me. You never and have zero record of striking out at me even if you are angry and loosing grip of reality; none, zip, and never ever happened. I do not see how it would be a problem now. However, if anything surfaces to suggest this game is being used on me; then I am not going to turn my life upside down or spend billions to look for one grain of sand. I will take my new commission, my ability to choose and govern my own life, and fix things quickly. Our relationship is sacred and not worth it; do not even take that risk. Do not even pull one stupid trick or one stupid excuse. That game is a dangerous game played only in the field and against enemies.

I am dependent on you because you are rich and representing me in this law suit and our law suit to prosecute these terrorists and the communist cell that kidnapped me a long time ago. Do not turn that game on me or on us; it will be devastating. I do not have enough information to determine what you did was necessary or was deliberate so you could capitalize on it (ie: dating so many guys, these so called dinners, etc…). There is just not enough evidence and you said I am unfairly crucifying you and you want a face to face discussion to resolve it all. That is a fair outcome given your and our record together; you have never violated our trust, never; but there is nothing to suggest you did or did not. There is nothing at this time to suggest you turned this game on me or on our own private life and marriage. There is a problem and there is a lot of anger related to this problem and your attitude how it is not a problem. I understand the situation and the mess you are in also; as the case with my own kidnapping and overwhelming problems with them striking out when they do not get what they want.

Recently, there was some surge and I was fed up. I gave you 30 days to file a complaint on a few people to send a clear message to them. I do not want you to write a column and debate them either. You must retaliate and stop them immediately or cut them off immediately. They were mad at me giving you that order and also baiting them with sexual intimacy between you and me. I do not want to know if Hannity’s wife eats semen. I do not wish to know if Rush had fingered Sean in California. I do not wish to know about allegations of you in some hotel which was hearsay but never turned up. Their life with their spouse is their business. I do not wish to know how many times they do it a day, whether or not their spouses eat semen, and how many homosexuals fingered them secretly. Yet they feel this is needed to gain their approval and acceptance.

They were behind 50 accounts being cancelled on politico.com while you claimed I was stalking you falsely. Then they tried to make it up to both of us and were blocking your web site server to prevent you from getting rid of them or ending this competition for your attention. RonDog and Lisa deleted my birthday gift and video for you and decided to “outdo” me to win your affection and push me out of your life. That really did it for me and I gave you 30 days to prosecute and file charges on them for several things. I will treat you all as one group and the unified group; until the evidence says differently. I made that birthday gift and reposted it below. They deleted that and emailed you, then wrote how they had a get together with you and took you to dinner which threw me overboard. I emailed them and told them to get lost and they retaliated. The last straw was when they told me to get lost and blocked your server using their server or web administration which was used to read your own email and track you online. They had been spying on you. They knew we linked and you found me finally. They were on this end and that end while it was happening tricking both me and you. Harmless terrorists and protective stalkers who are concerned about you while bad mouthing and driving us apart?

These people are sexually dysfunctional. Their church believes in celibacy and they cannot control the sexual and biological impulse which comes from a healthy relationship with the opposite sex. So they are pushy, overpowering, and strike out when they cannot get what they want. They no less know what a healthy relationship is or a stalker and obsessed deranged rapist who is giving someone unwanted attention. This has always been the case with an unloving and denied love life where powerful forces are not properly and positively death with. Therefore, they overpower and become sadistic much similar to a serial killer reclaim who they are or justify their behavior with sacred biblical verses to deal with this guilt. I had been with you for twenty years and nothing during that time raises doubt. Now it feels like a tug of war and Ann does not care who wins or who is in this tug of war. She has to accept some responsibility or take some blame instead of telling me she messed up but did not deliberately try to injure or hurt me. She is like a dead wall you pee on and I end up fighting her fight while she fights my kidnappers but refuse to prosecute them.

Ann, I have to fight you just to get support. You act like a wall which anybody can bounce off of and are a support for all conservative men who are lonely, that is not me, you cannot see me as this wall. Look at my book, people get book deals on the most worthless books. I have to beg you for support or if you can help me get it published, it sucks. You were madly in love with me the moment I got in high school. I know a lot about relationships and how to have great ones; such as with you. Do not bring or let that war come in our life and our romance, as it already has. This is why I am really upset with you; it will take me five years to figure out what is going on or who is lying or not. You went way overboard with your game, way overboard. These guys feel they are with you and you are in love with them because you went to parties, get together, dinners, and email them or act like their… I am disgusted wit the mere thought of this; worse what they say to me about you and us. Your life is junk and you produced it. There is another girl who can suit my life and the quality I want. It is junk and bad management which got us here.

STOP TREATING STALKERS LIKE EX BOYFRIENDS AND MISGUIDED TERRORISTS WHO ARE HARMLESS AND ALLIES. THEY HAVE PICTURES AT GET TOGETHERS AND CLAIM A LOT MORE AT SOME SECRET PARTY OR SECRET LIFESTYLE. ANN CLAIMED SHE WAS SET UP AND USED TO SPREAD RUMORS, SHE JUST APPROVES OF IT… IF I GET THAT COMMISSION, SHE IS GONE IN TWO WEEKS. IF I GET MY OWN STAFF, SHE IS OFF MY STAFF AND WITH THEM NOW. THEY CAN CLAIM WHAT THEY WANT AND YOU CAN PLAY ALONG ALL YOU WANT; TWO WEEKS AND YOU ARE GONE AND DONE WITH TO DATE EVERY CONSERVATIVE, GO TO DINNER WITH THEM, OR DO PHOTO OPS. THE WAY YOU TREAT OTHERS IS HOW THEY TREAT YOU.

WHAT WAS THE LAST STRAW AND CAUSED ANN TO GET A 30 DAY WARNING OR ELSE...

This video was Ann's B-day video card which I felt was really good. Read what they did below and emailed her and mad her promote it on her web site, as if Ann did not think I would even mind or care. So if one more incident happens, Ann will get blamed for all of them and everything which has happened for approving it and egging them on to capitalize on their deliberate maliciousness and attacks. She approved it and played along while I was being attacked like on politico.com! This game of hers is forbidden in our life and our marriage, forbidden, why then am I deal with it every single day? they are trying to take her out, me out; or both of us out before they get taken out. Ann just plays along and approves of it while they take it all back. I am sick of even begging Ann for some support on this matter.

Ann's official 47th Birthday Video:




This video was so offensive it was "censored" by RonDog and Lisa D, then they emailed her and had mad some professional one which was posted all over Free Republic and on Pop Modal, even Ann's web site as if she approved. If Ann plays along one more time or causes one more incident, I will blame her for everything which has happened, everything. I WAS SICK OF ANN TREATING THEM LIKE X BOYFRIENDS WHO SHE STILL CARED ABOUT.

Someday by Concrete Blonde:

DEAR ANN COULTER: FEDERAL INDICTIMENT FOR RONDONG (FREEP) AND JEFFERSDODGE (POPMODAL)

12/12/2008 3:56:09 PM

30 DAYS TO ACHIEVE THIS GOAL OR ELSE I SET MY SIGHTS ON YOU, THIS IS REPULSIVE AND HAS TO STOP NOW!

Ann Coulter, who is a federal prosecutor, has thirty days to provide the indictment and formal complaint against RonDog and JeffersDodge of Free Republic and Pop Modal of 1. Gross obstruction of justice 2. Internet stalking 3. Hacking into servers using his internet company technology 4. Invasion of privacy and reading private emails between myself and her and becoming insanely jealous when we discussed intimacy and sex 5. Internet illegal wire tapping and IP stalking and banning 6. Bullying 7. Slander by spreading a rumor he met her at a get together party, took her to dinner, had sex and have a love affair where he is her godfather and protector, which then led him to attack her life long partner while they were arguing. 8. Intentional infliction of emotional distress on two individuals who were in a real relationship. Ann has 30 days to obtain this indictment of one of her blatant lovers and close confidants.

She was told to cut off all contact whatsoever do to the stalking and attacks in 30 days, not one suggestion of impropriety could lead to a divorce, while we both confronted phantom stalkers online. The motive was insane jealousy, business deals gone sour, and book deals which he was a partner of. He circled, stalked her, grew fond admiration, and created a climate to scare off any potential or real love interests, even tried to eliminate husbands or spouses as a deranged fan who fabricated some online relationship by creating this fantasy and predator mindset where he never told her or asked her of what he was doing to her and her mate. He created a condition no man wished to enter or stay in while with Ann but hid behind the cloaking of a assistant. Typical stalker profile. If Ann does not provide an indictment in 30 days, I will indict her as a co-conspirator who encouraged my attacks and destruction while she was suffering psychological problems and threw it on my lap for my approval. Not a chance in hell and she was given 30 days to cut all contacts or face severe marital consequences.

I HAVE GIVEN UP AND GIVEN ANN 30 DAYS TO MAKE UP HER MIND

12/10/2008 9:11:01 PM I need to know when these terrorists and kidnappers will be delivered and behind bars, I need to know some timeline when my life is returned, I need to know if a third arrest is pending while my kidnappers claim to be the police. If I do not get a time line, when some order or law is restored, I will do things my own way. First is to leave and escape this kidnapping because they claim they are the police and have my fun. I will have my fun as you can see. I will tell all the psychics to express their total lack of confidence and disgust with the officials; bring them to their knees and tell them to fuck off and die. There is a point where it is so ridiculous and so corrupt, why bother. Why even waste time and be humiliated and harassed more. Nobody is in charge except terrorists or hate groups.

We cannot be responsible for what happens and sit and watch this ridiculous lack of trust and honesty. Nobody is in charge or watching the store; only kidnappers and radicals. I need a deadline and have to plan whether or not I wish to be here. I can get more done when these kidnappers are not the police. The hell if I am giving it to them or they will be on my team; I want absolute and total veto power with no dissent. I will not let one of these spies pass me by, not one regardless of how many tricks. I may change my mind when they are forcefully removed and deported. I need a deadline and when this will happen so I can plan and prepare my defense. Why bother. I am fine with leaving the country and can get more done and ending the daily harassment and antagonizing. In short, a deadline is needed so we can plan. Does anybody see them stopping? They are on a crime spree.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANN COULTER (OFFICIAL 47th VIDEO, LOL)

Happy Birthday my love and yes I love you with all my heart. I wish this ends and is over soon and I understand but it is also affecting me and upsetting me. Hurry, happy 47th and you look so gorgeous still, drop dead gorgeous. Yes, I am well aware how much you love me and how much you have committed and put into this. I am a good person Ann and an honest one, love will always win okay. Love will always be there and I love you okay. Got it… good, now cheer up. It has been a hard road so far and I have been upset recently, their new tactics pushed you to the edge and that point, it is pathetic. I love you with all of my heart and I know what your stalkers are doing or their tactics. They will not step down and claim they are merely following you.






HAPPY 47TH BIRTHDAY MY SWEETHEART! MANY MORE TO COME...

THIS SUMS UP OUR CHILDHOOD AND HOW WE MET A LONG TIME AGO

11/10/2008 1:21:27 AM

11/10/2008 1:21:27 AM

Our life part 1: What it was like growing up together... WHY IS MY BOOK SO DIFFICULT TO PRINT?

(FORREST GUMP VIDEO)

What it was like going through life together: Part 2, How life was supposed to turn out (sort of): Jen is actually supposed to be my life and my wild youth. Kids always play games of secrets and this is how Ann and I played our games. The movie came out at the time of my graduation and also military service. Although Ann and I knew each other prior to 1988, I was in a relationship and destined to marry after HS. Ann and I pretty much were inseparable by 1989 and have been ever since. She helped me go through that breakup and ever since my life has stabilized and skyrocketed; that is Ann. She taught me manners and etiquette and the finer things women see in men. Ann finally contacted me in 1989 and knew about my entire life prior to 1988 from family friends. I entered the military in 1990 months after Ann and I tied the knot. That was a long time ago.

We had discussed whether or not I was to return to computer science (ranked @ top 5 at Va Tech and entered as a sophmore 1st year). Personal problems ended my computer career and my health declined. Ann pulled me out and then selfishly grabbed me. Ranked as a sophmore in computer science already, the military had a special program for electrical engineering with real satellites. I jumped at the opportunity. The other plan was a two year stint with the Marines and then back to computer science class. I was really good with computers being only one of two people who were able to do the lab "pop test" programs in less than 15 minutes. They give you only 15 mins to write a full program. Only myself and one other person had a perfect record, we had a mutual talent. They gradually increase the difficulty to impossible to see who can hang in there; I was number 2. The other guy was number 1 in the entire dorm or college of 22,000 students. There were a lot of problems at this time, things were messed up.

War broke out immediately, kiss CS goodbye (I do miss it). From 1989 to 1993 I underwent intense training with both military and federal agents on a one on one basis. This is how I received five martial arts and expert marksmanship in just about every weapon in this world. The Army was great but integration placed the worst in our squad and fights erupted daily with myself and the other Sgts. in flight school. It is a long story and a worthy one to be told one day.

From 1989 to 2005 there are virtually no pictures of myself and very few of Ann (private pictures). We used to work out a lot and it is a shame those years passed. Do not believe the reports on her, she used disinformation because they are and were stalking her and writing lies about her personal life. It drove them nuts and to a near homocidal rage. Now that rage is being returned on us by harassment when nobody wishes to talk to these people, nor do they care to ask. Even if Ann has been with one guy her entire life, they were not able to get that right still. She ran circles around their surveillance and stalking.

On my end it was not the case; I never got a chance and was captured early by the left and the communists who in a fit of rage and wanted blood. They felt we would lead them to some right wing conspiracy or the SDI program. So here we are now. The clips are allegory, metaphors, and representations to be symbolic of mostly my life; you read the meaning into them and it is near perfect symbolism. My life changed for the worse in 1998 and has not recovered until 2008 when Ann found me online. I posted this blog and she must have seen it. I was bruised, beat up, and waiting to be an exile to leave the country. Ann was in bad shape herself and my life had stopped completely in 1998. Talent and intelligence can be a curse by those who are evil.

If I have ever won any award or medal, then I choose to just give them to Ann in protest and disgust with this world. Me, I am the type to farm and just raise children. That is just me. I have always had a strong impulse to marriage and family. Don't talk to me and tell me about how kind you are and how valuable I am to you. My life has been hell since 1998 and I am made to feel overwhelmed by communists and liberals. My goal is to put each and every one responsible for this behind bars for their remaining life. I hope they understand that. I blame Clinton, Bush and most of all Barrack Obama; these individuals feel they are superior when they are a true jackass. They have nothing to offer and take everything from others.

A CYBER I LOVE YOU TO THE ONLY ONE I LOVE, MY BEST FRIEND

10/7/2008 7:54:38 PM

Ann, this is a love letter and it is on my mind. We have spent our entire life together. To me and in my eyes, I have never laid eyes on such a beautiful woman and with such a brilliant mind. Over the years, I have given you the gift of my scientific mind and you have not once treaded on that fragile build, always giving back and giving more. I never asked or never cajoled any expectation from you because I felt you were my best friend and had your own life. We were connected and on the most intimate levels but I still saw you as a best friend and what we were doing was so much more than the fact we were in love. Maybe I had been wrong but I wanted to marry before putting down any of my thoughts. As my best friend, I nearly wept to you about how difficult and desperate I had felt with all the problems of being attacked. Most especially was our financial situation and I remembered you constantly telling me how rich you were and how much money you had. In turn, I would ask you to simply wait for me and how I would out due you one day… one day.

I no longer want to out due you; I just want to surrender to you and our best friends’ relationship. We had financial problems and now it feels like a tremendous burden has been lifted and my dreams of marrying are coming true even while we are being attacked and prisoners. I was so happy with my best friend before. It was like a real best friend who always understood and who always would play with you. You spent day and night with me and never turned me away. Now I find out I am married to my best friend and only friend because she does not and will not let go of our love regardless of how dangerous this world becomes for her. I can live with my own dangers; I cannot force you to choose that for your life while I enjoy myself so much with you, my best friend and only friend in this world. That sums it up, if you get teary eyed then that is how it will be. I used to chide you about beating you in the end and now I am not sure if I did or not, it doesn’t feel like it.

We had a lot of financial problems and I had given up and lost faith. I did give up on you and I felt I was a failure because I could not defend you. There is too much danger and I did not want you exposed to this as I had told you over and over. Now our life and our family have been struck with personal tragedy and maybe more to come. It has caused me to explore my deepest emotions and I am sure you have also explored your deepest feelings even if you deny it as just being a good spouse. I celebrate our journey in life but despise the world we live in for this tragedy and burden it has beset on us. You have no idea how happy I truly am. You have no idea how proud I am of you and what you have done. You have no idea how monumental it makes me feel to be with you finally and be able to stand proud and to reclaim our life, one stolen from us by terrorists.

Maybe our love with teach others the importance of love and family. To be touched by it and enriched living in it also. Maybe it will encourage people to appreciate their spouses and to treat them well and with the dignity they deserve and expect. Maybe it will make them feel the hardships and the journey of being man and woman, to dream together and to live one life worth telling and to be truly blessed by both pain and happy in this theater of the absurd and seemingly pain.

Most of all, you have no idea how much I love you Ann and how you have not only become my best and only friend, but the person who wakes up in my bed and smiles back as much or harder than me. This is my best friend who is not really my best friend but much more. That is priceless and worth the price of admission no matter how much more we must suffer for being put in a world where the devil finds their spirit drowning in their own blood. I am and still that man you began life with Ann, I still am just as you are still also in our bliss together.

Alex

ANN AND I ON INTERACIAL DATING: WE DO NOT EVEN SEE RACE BUT WE KNOW WE HAVE A PROBLEM WITH CERTAIN ONES

10/1/2008 8:24:31 PM



Do you see what would happen if they come out of hiding or get to anxious? They get put in their place for misbehaving. A public flogging while we get private floggings by kidnappers and terrorists.

If you study videos of Ann, then you may have come across things which appear odd but may not be to her, only I and she know. Until 2008 I have never watched any videos or performance by her as the Hollywood rule goes. I am too close to her to watch and have never seen one appearance until 2008. She has made comments about interracial relationships and how people freak out. She neglects to mention or tell everyone she has been and is in an interracial relationship.

Understand, we do not see it as interracial but equals. Race problems are an equality issue. Ann and I are true partners; we do not have this problem with seeing our self as interracial because we are equal partners. Ann does not see me as Asian and I do not see her as Caucasian. We are nearly identical. Ann is my voice. We are identical except in gender. There is very little if no difference. My sexual appeal is the same. My games are the same. How I view people is the same. You cannot hate on me and hate on her at the same time but this is happening with the stalkers and we know who they are. They got a major problem on their hands.

On interracial relationships or relationships in general there is a serious problem with these freaks. They feel invited or can come in our home or nation. The mind of an illegal alien almost, they never ask. If they have problem or need to know, ask. Instead, they linger and expect or are entitled to some special treatment. It is some sort of mute or retardation where you are not able to ask the right questions only the wrong ones because you deserve to die. Ann and I have nothing to do with black politics but they are constantly approaching us. That is the same mentality of the white liberals. IT HAS CAUSED US TO HATE OTHERS TREMENDOUSLY.

This is why she is “Miss Saigon” or said that. Her story also sounds very similar to many which were the result of the Vietnam War where families were separated or worse, tragedy. She admires most the will and strength of the people who fought in that war and honors them tremendously. Ann even speaks Vietnamese but has a very limited vocabulary. Her accent is perfect and surprisingly indistinguishable.

One such case is the old Politically Incorrect episode when she is wearing the eye patch. Any good sniper will know what a shooters eye is. If you are without a shooters eye, you wear a patch to compensate. This is not about shooting. Back in the early 1990s, Ann and I used to study spy cases and I was being taught by some old Cold Warriors a few tricks. We came across several spy hunters who wore eye patches and I would joke about it. I said it was hip and chic, but wondered if they were real or for only fashion. There is your answer.

There is a lot more and I come across them all the time. It is ten years worth of videos and she and I will have to sit down and document it all and you will see some incredible stuff. Recently, Ann has been dressing up and showing how “liberated” she is finally. You will see her differently now and not as reserved to suggest she is interested. This change also occurred in 2005 after prison. She looks healthy, not frail and worried sick, more relaxed, and different. Back in the 1990s, I had a lot of muscles.

People would stare and literally drool at the body I had and how shiny and tan I was. It was from years of 3-6 hours a day work outs and nutrition. People had just never seen anything like it and how the vesicular development I had. We were very quiet and snobby at the time because of the attention and over attention in public, an air of arrogance to suggest “not interested at all.”

What is most amazing is how Ann has not given up on this marriage and partnership. First it is interracial and there are so many problems. Second, it cost her natural birthing problem bearing children. Third, the danger was immense and she was told that they were not playing around and to call it quits. It is very surprising to burden oneself with love while not opting for any other man or vowing how no other man will ever have her. In other words, Ann has been with one and only one man in her entire life and she has vowed to that number. She said she would join a convent if something happened back in 1989 when we first met.

As far as life long friends or partners, that is a mystery. There are so many people who claim a few days, weeks, even months and make it a lifetime. I think it is fair to say she really does not have any lifelong associations or even companionship. Both Ann and I spend so much time together that we really do not talk to friends or have any close ones. Family members are just emails and chit chat. We really do not have any life beyond me and her but we have a lot of problems in our life and more looming problems which prevent us from having that fulfilling one we expected. We are and were hanging on to a future together as soon as the problems go away so we can have a future.

After twenty years it is nothing but uneventful but it is the most rewarding situation outside of this stalker problem and peeping tom problem we have now. We have massive problems with stalkers and how close they are to her. They do not want to come forward because they wish to keep it ongoing and make her life worse and worse. That is the classical stalker, they do not seek an answer but is so bizarre they do not want to get out of the life of someone else that does not want them there or is trying to catch them and punish them. They have watched and they know both Ann and I are together but could not prove a love connection. They still cannot and that is the problem with a stalker, she is asking why they are there.

The local authorities are some representative and say how they are investigating internship or some teacher student relationship which is absurd. First they pound us, then they try to investigate us, now they tell us we do not know right from wrong, they hide information and evidence to exonerate us, they hide evidence that incriminates them, and they lie profusely about what their business is about or why they must make an excuse to justify why they are in our life. That is the fundamental problem; they are manipulating and controlling our life.

That is the classical megalomaniacal serial killer, stalker, and pervert or molester excuse; nothing happened. The word is also consent but there is so much corruption they will problem get away with this even if it is near rape and peeping tom behavior. They say they are or were never interested just checking to see if we were behaving. We need a military force to beat the ugly out of them and teach them a clean lesson about this type of behavior. Somebody has to take the initiative or leadership if anybody, it is beyond an outrage.

Cyber Warfare HQ

WHY DID WE "DATE" LIBERALS OR GOT STUCK WITH THEM? (I WAS THEIR PROTEGE AND BEING STALKED)

I was a protege against my will. Hand chosen by Generals, they trace a few of them to the LBJ years and Vietnam. They just snatched us up and made us some prisoner. My fate was to marry Ann and she came to DC. I could not shake off the liberals and began dating the people who I was not able to shake off. I told Ann everything and what they were up to or looking for, not marriage, to spy on us. This was a set up and a flood of disappointment. It is not as if they are going to tell us what they are up to so we have to find out.

If you look at the "dates" I have had throughout the years, Ann changes her look and has the ability to look exactly like them. This video is a near identical, almost unable to tell the difference, between my ex fiance and high school sweetheart and Ann Coulter in the 1990s. The only difference was one was a genius and the other could not add whatsoever. They wear the same dresses, have the same hair, the same smile and expressions, say the same things, and a near identical replacement. Everytime I see these videos from 2002 to 2008, it is a girl whom I had dated once or more. Ann's ability to change her look is incredible.

She has since taken her own style and her own originality. My reason for dating has to do with research both I and her were doing to root out these problems with liberals by dating them. It is utter disappointment and they marry for mere expedience. Ann is only following my cue on the dating part. I told her everything and she told me everything. She only dates when I date or go out (absent 2002 to 2006). Since 1989 I have work side by side with Ann and we were destined to be married if we could shake this stalker and protege problem. We hate their guts. These marriages gets you "in."

You will notice the peak of Ann's beauty is 2003 and prooving she is more gorgeous than the best looking girl at Ocean City, Md. during the summer of 2000 to 2002 who was both a heavy metal beauty queen and classic blond. I have never been interested in any of these girls, not one bit. It is utter disappointment but you are never taught why or how come, it is some secret. This is as close as you can possibly get to cloning my fiance who was dirt stupid and reckless. After dating all Catholic women I have come to conclude that it is a lost cause, it is blatant disappointment and head games to string you along. If they want to admit it then admit it, it is a hive of imperfection and all sorts of personality disorders which dating them only reveals, a sense of laziness. This is the identical twin of my ex-financee. The girl at the beach was prettier but a heavy metal type rocker.

We suspected the Catholics were disgruntled about Vietnam and was trying to steal it from the Presbyterians who were actually the military force there. They don't tell us, we have to go and find out for ourself why they could not claim Vietnam as their prize or accomplishment. Keep in mind, she is dating based on my cue. I told her all this stuff also and she knows what the problem is, she is following up on my lead double checking my work.

HERE IS THE SHORT VERSION OF ANN AND HOW SHE PROPOSED MARRIAGE IN JUNE OF 2008 AFTER 20 YEARS

9/27/2008 10:53:22 PM

It is still not known why it took so long to propose. Maybe Ann knew I was wandering around drinking, GOING TO ENDLESS CONCERTS, and going to parties trying to forget about love and this terrorist hit which caused some inner change and anger. It was a very very negative change and Ann knew this, we avoided talking about it at any cost. I did not get any of Ann love letters and very few business ones. I had shut everything out until 2006 vowing never to return until I could seek vengeance for the terrorist hit on me and my marriage. Ann told me after she felt our marriage was stolen on both my side and her side and replaced with a clone, some representation like the liberal affirmative action.

Keep in mind, she was supposed to go underground and hide as I had told her. She was to forgive and forget. She did none of that. She was very scared of disappointment and very scared of a lot of other things which we were knocking out one at a time. but with no help and no support, we were dead. I felt we were dead and I told her this over and over. They will not stop. I will try a sacrifice now that I am not able to fight any longer, so the leaf will fall this spring and we will forgive and forget if we wish to survive. They mortally wounded me in 2002 and literally sucked the life out. It was game over for me and I had told Ann this. Look for me in 10 or 20 years and take out as many as she could. I told one day, find me again and look for me when I am safe and reemerge. I will be like the fire and the wind one day again.

Ann proposed an overt marriage in June of 2008 and spent at least two full weeks crying and telling an unbelievable story about what happened to her. It was unbelievable because I had shut everything out until 2006 and it will take her two years to try and find me while I scrambled to go into hiding. I am able to contact her but she is not able to contact me, until April of 2008 on a web site which alarmed me like I had seen a ghost, how did they break our security or was this really Ann?

It was really her and she was okay but totally bruised up. I had shut out everything, even Ann and she was told to go into hiding and to never contact me again; maybe she was scared I would yell at her because of the lies and smut about her life. That was the very first thing she spent week on, trying to clear up her name and telling the story of what happened to her. She was scared and you could feel it when she begged for a chance to explain. I felt it was a spy who was posing as her because she was given orders to not contact me ever again; and was testing me to see what they could get. We were dealing with so many spies and so many attacks. There were times when we were arguing about who did what and why. The story is so long and difficult to understand unless you have both and both stories. I gave up because I could not find her story. She was silent because I was so hurt and shut things out which took almost two years before I had finally broke down one night. So long as they could keep us apart, they could silence us and continue what they were trying to do or doing. It was also from the top down, not bottom up.

Ann and I spent the entire of June together and this is her first TV appearance after finally proposing. In a week a full frontal attack will arise to silence us and to isolate us and drive us crazy and mad. It was all lies but with us emailing and talking, those lies were exposed. The main fomentors of those lies were Rush Limbaugh and liberal blogs. The next one was a local television station who reported weird stories implying innuendoes. There was so much lies and smut, photo ops and stories, implications, etc… None of it was even true, none. Nobody cared to email her and ask if they were true or had a shred of truth.




Cyber Warfare HQ

WHEN WE FIRST MET AND WHAT WE DID - REMEMBER?

Friday, 19 September, 2008

Hey ann, I wish we were on politico.com so i would ask you specific questions. When you were on O'Reilly and he kept bringing up Maher and said "you are friends with him aren't you" and then you said "I haven't seen him in a long time, but yeah... I guess so" how long was a long time? LOL... he is really mad and taking the lip shut thing harsh. Seems as if he decided not to speak out and keep a lie rolling and then it bit him in the ass.

Also, he has not printed or said anything yet referring to you and him except drinking buddies. Other than this Dyson says things, his friends or anonymous gossip says things, and never a "Ann and I did this." However, I did notice him say "you left your earring at my house the other..." and then the next time you were on you said "i thought we were in love..." to dig a bigger hole. Just like the liberals, they dig a bigger and bigger hole. He is taking it hard initially as if he was in love with you. That is a joke, I saw his standup and what he says about wives and marriages.

At first I was not able to see the big picture but now I can. You let him dig his own grave. When he used the gossip, you fed him more ammo until it was ludicrous. So he was only offering you to stay at his place and wanted to stay at your place when in New York. Which is why they taught him or you how to sneak into hotels? LOL.. hilarious and I can see you doing this or mind fucking them. What do you say to these fuck heads when you are mad at them already? Thank you for the memories?

On O'Reilly you said to him "that's not a very good plan... " and how you pissed off everyone and sold 5 best selling books. By the way, thank you for defending my love. I never thanked you. You could not go after Hillary but you did go after the Edwards for what they were doing at the time. It was really Spitzer though who was causing most of the trouble in my life and probably was linked to Limbaugh and Hillary on the June 2006 arrest. I say we sue them and take them to federal court.

Don't go on and stay away from these people okay. I am monitoring things and they are turning on you. It is funny how Lisa has not said a thing. Almost like Rush who kept it hush hush. These people are pathetic Ann, I am sorry but there is nothing I can respect. They refuse to get out of our life and think we are obligated to them because they are entitled. What do you say to them?

Don't you just want to go and get a farm and live on it with me? Yeah you do. Boy that would be so fun but we know how insane and fun we both are. What is your point though? I see you want to go to some concerts with me and would love to! Rave is what I want to try. You know I love concerts and go to them a lot, so save yourself for me okay babe. I will save myself for you too now that you told me and said I love you. You should have told me earlier but the game is almost over. If you were and are trying to win it, we will not win it. Don't fool yourself. We will not win.

Nobody has ever really won against the communists and the devil. The question is how long you want to keep plugging away for. They will not stop or tell the truth either. They just a dirt type of breed who uses life as a buffer to their insanity. We can keep this going on forever. But we made a promise and you said my words which I had repeated to you 20 years ago. I remember what you said also, "stop and wait... " as if you meant "don't." Well, I told you... they came for us and looking. So you had remembered what I said to you when you first introduced yourself. How many weeks did we snuggle for and never went out of the house? LOL... you remember that also? And you had lied about your name telling me it was "Cathy." Hilarious, we spent what 3 or 5 weeks doing nothing and trying to get used to each other so intimate. Who was more comfortable me or you? Wow that was 20 years ago.

Now that I think about it, it is strange to snuggle with your partner "Cathy." Okay, I had said "we have to stop them" and I had taken off and you said "wait... don't." You didn't want me to get hurt or knew how crazy it was; you wanted me to be a double agent sort of. The shit we used to do. Remember my martial arts classes? And the shooting range and automatic weapons those federal agents let me use? Holy cow they said they "borrowed them" from the arsenal. Damn, it was like all four of them had an arsenal.

I love you so much Ann. Tell me if this did not change you and make you fall in love so badly. I mean so badly caught the bug, seriously. How do you rationalize all the memories we have and the crazy shit I used to do like that night at the Naval Base on my motorcycle? Do you honestly feel I am insane or nuts? You said I was 8 maybe 9 level fearless.

Well, now we have to deal with a dung heap while thinking about heaven between you and me. It has been heaven Ann, nothing but heaven between you and me. Since we first met and became best friends, never a day or moment not answering and always there every single minute of every single day. If that don't make you best friends, what does. I want to see this through Ann and want to be with you so badly now. So badly, you too caught the bug! I tell ya, this has been a mixed blessing of almost being killed and being nursed back by your best friend and partner. You have never once, not once, left my side. I have never once left your side as partners. In love, it took a little getting used to but now I am positive we are in heaven together and our love is immortalized in heaven. There is no other way to know or understand. My god... and one day we will sit down and look into each others eyes and you will be bawling your eyes out hugging me so hard "hysterical." Admit it, you are going to be hysterical. LOL... if that is not love then what is Ann, what is? That is not love Ann, that is a true miracle and we are in heaven together. We will be face to face one of these days, again.

8=)> I love you too! That was 20 years ago and when we first started training together. Good thing you were not gorgeous then as you are now! Oh, and from 1990 to 1998, I had not gone on any date or even spoke to a girl hardly at all, it was just me and you. But I still never saw you in that light and I remember telling you a couple times "you are my best friend" or "beyond you I really do not know anyone else." I also asked you to be the best man at my wedding if I ever got married, who would of thought the sexiest and most loving person I had ever met, was my faithful partner who never once left my side. The only time I thought you wanted any sex was when you had first got to DC and had your brand new Apple computer! I am sure you can have 20 of those damn things now. It was so cool and I was jealous! lol.

Apples are neat computers aren't they! I told you to get one! I would have married you and lived the rest of my life in that little two story house in Maryland. It was a cute place, not big just your home. I did not mind driving a bus or even picking trash as a career really. I have never really been too "like that." You say I am a genious and don't have to try but I just want to be happy in the arms of my wife watching TV and maybe going out once in a while. I have to admit also and it is blatantly obvious how in my youth, I would have sex with my wife probably twice or three times a day.

It is weird because I was so athletic and like a mustang at the time but never dated anyone, just you. Aren't you lucky you waited. Most people will be shocked how many secrets I tell you and how close we are. I told you fisting was the most gross thing especially when they wear those dishwashing gloves. How embarassing. My mouth dropped after you said that. Then I told you that in CT it used to be legal to beat your wife so long as you kept the stick under 4cm in circumference, lol. Endless nights of sex talk also and you never get horny either. I did not either and I never saw you like that really. I knew you were very good looking and knew you were a genious but I never thought you would fall in love with me! Never. Well, not true. I waited so long and tried so hard to get you interested but you just never showed up. Everytime I asked you out, you never showed up. LOL. Never.

I used to tell you "this is just about sex." LOL. How embarassing. And I would tell you what I wanted to do, you just never would show up and then the next day was my best friend again and we left it at that. Never mad or anything. Then you got jealous when scored, you liar. I just never thought you were holding out and trying so hard to propose. Never had a clue, never.

I am so in love and in heaven Ann, hilarious what you do sometimes! You proposed to me while you stood me up for years and was still my best friend. Then you used all of those men to propose finally, in fucking credible story! Oh I feel it too... trust me.

Cyber Warfare HQ

TYPICAL ANN (YOU KNOW SHE DOES THIS) ON DATING LIFE - SHE NEVER DATES SERIOUSLY

There are a lot of secrets which Ann puts in her writing that only I and her share. Both Ann and I went for so long without any dates, dinner, or the slight bit of fun. From 1990 to 1998 was a dead period in the personal life and totally dead. Not even one single date. It was a desperate situation and Ann used to hear so many complaints about the DC area which made Ocean City, Md and Virginia Beach a good weekend trip. But if you go there, it is so crowded during the summers it is still difficult. Ann would never date me or go on a date, not even drinks and you just give up eventually. That was her big surprise, if she would have dated seriously, the first one would have been with moi back in 1998 when I used to ask her, oh every week on Friday to meet at Ocean City Maryland.

Having grown up in and around DC, frequenting the bars in Northern Virginia, Hammerjacks in Maryland, Adams Morgan, Trax, and the many bike paths and gym; I would complain to Ann about how women were uptight and always too hidden in their reasons around Washington DC. The single life only works if you are in college or there for a short job. Other than this people leave for the weekend or get stationed every two years. Ann got sick and tired of me saying this and I used to ask her out all the time for a one night stand and she would even turn me down! I used to ask her out weekly and she would play it off. Okay so she had to work the next morning and really did not have a career yet.

"Coulter had written a complaint about single life in Washington, and Salon responded with some dating advice to help her in her "quest for tube steak". The magazine's tips ranged from "Buy a vibrator" to "Stop being such a mean bitch". She laughs this all off, of course, since she has no interest in being a victim, but you can't help but feel that some of the flak that has landed on Ann Coulter is not about her politics. Put another way, few conservative men arouse this kind of hostility. Besides, you've got to love a woman who manages to construct a feminist argument for the right to bear arms. Does she own a gun herself? "I do." Where does she keep it? "Well, that's more classified than who I'm dating. Guns are our friends. God made man and woman; Colonel Colt made them equal." - "An Appalling Magic" by The Guardian, 2003 -

WE DID GIVE THEM EMAILS AND ALLOW FACT CHECKING OR CHALLENGE

See, nobody can say, 'you never gave us an email' and we never told you to 'clean it up yourself.' You have an email and you can always post a comment on here if there is a problem with facts and telling the truth. They are too scared and they lie then keep it going as long as they can like digging a hole deeper! Now they email to clear it up or challenge it but it will be very hard to explain. Rush tried and was lying thru his teeth! Email her or me Rush next time you lie and block us, we have a secret phone no. you know.

ANN I AM WORRIED SICK! WHAT IS GOING ON? DID THEY EMAIL YOU OR READ OUR EMAILS?

9/16/2008 7:30:04 PM

To Ann Coulter;

Ann, I am worried sick! I have no way to email you now or hear your voice. You are not able to hear me or write back. I have been blocked again and worrying. They hacked my laptop (4 grand Sony Vaio) and destroyed my “superiority” and sound chip, blocked our emails, blocked me on every site, blocked your site, and still refuse to email you and resolve this as soon as possible. What is going on? Did you shoot that fat molesting bastard yet? I am worried sick. What did they do to you since we spoke or what else?

Rush and his liberal horde admitted this and I am worried sick and going crazy obviously. They tried to make me so jealous and divorce you, kick you out, tell you to fall in party line, etc… he keeps saying he is the boss and we are his subjects. He is a total loser. The only info I get about you is from him and the media and it is the usual; she is a slut, whore, witch, wench, cruel, sleeping around, you are engaged, you are dating all these guys, you are partying and staying out all night; but you said none of that was verified and fabricated. Now they will not and refuse to email you, even your closest friends and conservatives refuse to defend you.

So I am worried. I know them. I know what they will do. I told you they surrounded you and had contacted me at least 2 years ago. I have no idea what they are saying about us or lying about. First it was how I was stalking you. Then how desperate I was and now it is for the party and nation. I told you it was Rush and his conservatives and they are or were aiding Obama and the liberals.

Why don’t they just remove him and tell him he is unacceptable? What a weak dumb idiot. Is he dangerous (FBI just said yes). Why don’t he let go of you and email both you and I? I am worried now because of everything that happened and what they did but they said they will not be caught alive. Where are you, I wrote on politico.com and said to write me back and begin writing to me. Then this morning I did not get a chance to read your email. Did they email you and ask? Please post it and prove it. I am worried sick, this is our life and career work. They are also stomping on the floor here also and getting feisty. Where are you and are you okay without my love letters daily? Are you writing your column and what we talked about? I sent you 4 of my essays this week, did you get them? Hurry up and post their email and explanation. I am on a limb here and also injured. Get them out of our life please and out of our bed.

I gave them your email and secret id on politico.com but they had already known it was you and you said you never told them. Regardless, I will give Rush, the conservatives and the liberals your email again to fix this in 24 hours and leave us alone.

We are giving you a choice. You give us no choices as a stalker and kidnapper. She even has challenged you to verify the information on politco.com even after they cancelled my account on there for the 37 time. What the hell are you waiting for? Either you email her or get the hell out of your life because she is 20 years obsessed with you. She just opened her account up again last night with me. If they come in your house like they did mine, blow them away. They also set up cameras and listening bugs while you are away. At least with me they did.

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I love you so hurry,
Cyber Warfare HQ

ANN THEY BEEN READING MY EMAILS TO YOU AS I WRITE THEM (ITS BOTH SIDES TRYING TO UNIFY AND WIN)

9/14/2008 10:23:44 PM

Ann, listen it was Rush and some other people linked to Obama. They were reading my emails before I even sent them to you. Both our legal briefs and emails were going to Obama and Rush and McCain. But here is the problem. These are both legal briefs, legal facts and evidence against them, and they would lie on tv or radio. They are spying to save their ass. I have no idea what they did to you but this stalker and person blocking you is very jealous about you ejaculating. It is someone who has a lot of affection and does not want to see you fall in love or marry. I have no idea why Rush or Obama or who the people upstairs were both blocking, creating problems, and spying on the attorneys who were prosecuting them and asking if we were good friends. Rush and Hannity had been pushing politico.com and recently Rush changed his tune to Gilbert at Sweetness and Light claiming to be good friends of theirs. Next thing I know the attack on us goes nuts and they block me on the server as a whole. Rush also offered your head and I was not amused. I have no idea why these people are stalking you, why they read our legal briefs, why they are doing this but I know they are trying to save their ass. The question is what exactly did they do and are stalking you for? This is not my stalker this is your stalker who is blocking our marriage and reading our legal briefs and case to spy and defeat by denying any legal challenge. We cannot ignore them and cannot legally challenge them. What other option do we have or allowed with this stalker? Rush and Obama is one of them. There are several others and someone was distributing our legals. Rush also said “he needed the top analysis” to stay ahead and Obama never explains or tries. He just takes it. They already violated the law by denying legal defense and also spying on legal email and mail. They said they needed it to stay ahead. It was the conservatives also. They are spying on you. My stalker is a liberal because I stayed under the radar. You surprised them. So they cozier up to me and tried to get rid of you. They read my stuff to “pander” while saying they needed it to win. When they found out you and I had been together for 20 years, they gave up on me and tried to offer your head. It is on both sides and it is to empower “domestic enemies.” The link is the Catholic Church and liberals; the link is the race card. That is what they are after, the race card and issue. They are stealing to stay ahead and defeat us legally which is very illegal.

THIS SONG WAS THE BEST SELF EXPLAINATION EVER GIVEN

In Lovin Memories:

IN DEFENSE OF MARRIAGE AND FAMILY (LOTS OF SEX... HOW MANY MARRIAGES? JUST ONE)

9/12/2008 4:48:37 PM

On average, married women have sex 3 to 7 times a week. There is a point where sex is regular and not on the minds of others because it is expected and assumed. On average the single couple has sex every 3 years and dates up to 3 to 4 times a week. Unless you date 1, 2, or 3 times a week you never dated. Trust me. Has Ann Coulter ever had a one night stand "absolutely never" (whoever you are she says sue me).

Ann asked me to post this public comment, “she has never given a blow job outside of her own marriage.” In other words, if you were not married to her, then you neither got a blow job nor even know what her boobies or undies looks like. She wears thongs and has a collection of very sexy underwear. A very expensive collection; given this article problem came from Rush Limbaugh who is too scared to approach and ask Ann or send some envoy to find out. She wants everything to flow to me and through me so I can approve she said. Confront me not her about sex because it is too private.

Ann’s sexual knowledge and sex is based strictly on her marriage. If that is promiscuous then it is. You nailed her and busted her for being sleazy while acting demure because she only believes in marriage and family. To have any sort of sex or even hold hands with her, you have to marry her. You are dealing with cowards and they live in coward land, Ann is monogamous. She made it very clear in 1989 nobody else will ever have her. (Beyond that is fantasy if you ask me but she has no reason to lie, women do not need men when it comes to sex, what they need is something beyond sex itself). I am a workaholic and she likes to keep up, so she is thinking about retirement and how her life will be one day when she is exonerated.

Ann was not able to call and was disconnected for three full years; she worked nonstop for three years. Also, the only period unaccountable is 2002 to 2005 and she was basically too distraught and worried about injuries to seek the comfort of someone else. It took a year of rehab and another year of physical therapy before returning to normal and then another year to even talk about the disaster gone badly. Ann is distraught to talk about it. You do not understand how it affected her and it made her feel she lost her own life and dreams. The same feeling was on this end, fed up.

Thank you Rush for the fine plug on Sweetness and Light on your web site. You should have your penis inflated like your head and stomped on until flat. She is not able to describe anyone’s penis besides emails they send her and she is careful not to give out that email. Anything else you wish to know? It is different when you know someone and they bloom into another person 20 times what they were when you married them, they call that a late bloomer. Women do not go and divorce their mates and begin offering blow jobs the minute they are successful. Women do not need men when it comes to sex, get that straight.

http://sweetness-light.com/archive/pam-anderson-tells-sarah-palin-to-suck-it

Ann never gave anybody a blowjob and she is not very good at it either; if you have the balls to ask her, then please do. She sucks! You hear that Rush, women do not need men for sex, they use it to get what they want. She never used blowjobs in any relationship and if she did, it would not be outside of marriage. Most women do not hate sex and Ann does not hate sex whatsoever it is very private. She does not need you she chooses you. Stop jumping to third base when you skipped being at bat, first base, and second.

Cyber Warfare HQ

We are very fashion oriented and I will do a write up on the classic blonde bombshell (Bo Derek, Farrah Fawcett, Grace Kelly, Angie Dickinson, Bette Davis, Marilyn Monroe, Suzanne Sommers, etc…) Men are very picky when it comes to fashion and the perfect blonde. This is Rush and Lisa’s work.

ANN COULTER PUBLICLY DISCUSSES HER DATING LIFE AND SEX LIFE (LYING?)

1:51am
12 Sept


If you are scared then you are a fag and should be shot with a 38 special... it is an insult when they love you and you think they will leave you, do not love you, and do not trust you. It is an insult to be scared they will leave you the moment something better comes along or an easy way out. That is not love. When you are in love you are fully committed and say "I am in love you glad damn jerk off idiot."

So why are or were you lying? What are you lying about? You are choosing your words carefully but to lie? Why? Was it to hurt or to injure? Who are you marrying... and dating?

I Will Marry You? (The question is simple “have you ever dated a liberal? The question is not did you kiss them, hold their hand, get a second date, or was a fiancé and already in love.) What are you hiding Ann Coulter and who is this “other gun toting guy who stands alone until his wife arrives.” Is he some military commando or some military leader? It is a yes or no question Ann Coulter, what are you hiding and why? When are you ever going to give us the hot and steamy details? We want to know what turns you on and makes you breathe harder and harder such as those questions.





I love you and want to marry you. You know I want to have a kid or kids with you. We waited too long to marry but we had no choice and had our life plans changed babe. I am so sorry, so sorry; I feel bad and I cannot change it nor do anything. I had thought maybe it was best to forget and leave it alone, a lost cause. I feel so bad and so sorry about this but look at us now and how happy we got or became.

Maybe it was best? Fate has an odd way to life. We have to commit to a family and stay home? Is that what you want? Do you want to see the world and maybe do things together or settle down and start a family Ann? I don't care... we are finally together and that is all that matters to me. I just don't care... I love u so much and I feel my life so complete and total bliss. How about you, how do you feel? You say I love you all day sometimes... and that is the sweetest sound and feeling. I just got knocked out of the fight and I was kept out of it or just left for dead in life. How did I get knocked out of the fight and had to figure out how to be back or get back in?

My life began in 1989 and since then I have lived it with you. I can only love one person and only want to love one person. I know you are the record keeper and write our family diary. Did you record keep and record from 1989 to 2002? There is a lot of bad stuff written about you out there but your life is cut and dry. I honestly think you are some sort of prisoner and cannot leave your house. I have the same feeling but in my case, it is much worse. I hope you kept our family records from 1989 to now or some sort of memories between us. It will get lost with all of the bad photo ops and smears.

I honestly think these guys hate you and only want sex but they act like you broke their hearts or something. A toy which was on a string or to be discarded. What did they base any of this on? Anything? Ann your parents were married for 54 years! Wow. How many years do you think you and I will reach? We have 20 so far and it is interesting to ask or think we can beat your parents 54 years together. I am 39 now and in 30 years will be 69, so that makes it 50 years together. That is a really long time and nothing to joke about. I hope we can sit down and do some type of scrapbook. How come your friends and our enemies are trying to discourage us so much? Your messages are not delivered or get to me, our life is messed and made to wait so long, we get cut off and isolated, it is like we have something following us to make sure out political career is never complete or fulfilled.

We will be together for 50 years of our life when I am 68. If I make it to 78, then we will have been together for 60 years. Then 88 we will have been together for 70 years! Holy cow... imagine being with someone for that long and I totally cherish you Ann, totally. You are my best friend; you saved my life and came to my rescue when I was surrounded and trying to fight out of it. I was almost killed and left for dead, how do I repay you? Tell me my debt to you (so how does it feel now when I reverse it).

So they knocked me out of the fifth and fight. Then was able to keep me out and pinned down forever. Even I was not able to figure out how in the hell I was going to get back in the fight or even secretly escape this death march they had for me. I don't even know who to sue or who to take it out on, your friends or our enemies? Obviously, it is imperative I get back in the fight but under these conditions and current conditions, it is nearly impossible. Worse, they don't do a damn thing to fix it or make it better. Let's start with my medical problems and injuries. Who the hell is in charge or was in charge? Who allowed it to happen? Who planned the hit on us?

It is damn obvious why they did and what the stakes are. Who do we blame or go after? The people who did it or the people who allowed it to happen? Then those who allowed it stole you or tried to and I see you fighting back and almost ripping their heads off. They just do not know it yet and that is the beauty of the entire story, stupid is as stupid does. Knock me out and leave me for dead and steal you and cheapen you and everybody is going to say "why in hell would anyone waste their time or do that for?" I have no clue, can you figure this out? Why the hell would they knock me out of the fight for, it was all a secret and nobody knew. So why did they knock me out then? I had to figure out how to get back in and was not able to so I just gave up. I gave up on you too until I finally got your message which you delivered yourself finally.

...and if I don't make it, you already know I had already loved you all along... I had to give up if I wanted to get back in this fight and keep this mission alive. I tried so hard... tried everything I could think but they had me outnumbered by almost 1 to 10, 0000, unlimited money and resources, massive authority, and total control of government. All of this just to get even and protest the Vietnam War and this 6th Great religious Awakening they had been looking for. It is too bad communism is both an internal and external problem which they tried to pull a hoax on me about.

They do not do anything about this communist threat. The right wing does nothing and the left wing wants to go after the right wing to save communism itself. Do we go after the people who allowed this or do we go after the ones who did it? Oh wait, it is all the same enemy.


Cyber Warfare HQ who is getting extremely excited and horny!

A LETTER TO ANN COULTER: WHY I LOVE YOU THROUGH THE YEARS AND EVEN MORE NOW

9/11/2008 1:57:35 PM

Daddy's little girl has a little bit country and a little bit of rock and roll: (Excerpts from another letter but a glimpse of what or why Ann was crying about, when children cry and why.)

I told you over and over how lonely it is in a cold cell in complete isolation. Nobody is there and it is lonely. Then the feeling of coldness in your body and your body giving up and wanting to release the energy, almost death or very close; I had felt this before and while in the Army, your body wants to lay down and die. But you got to fight and you yell at yourself. You get this out of body experience where you float over the battle and you float from a view where a voice takes over.

Maybe children are like that feeling of loneliness. Maybe it is that helpless feeling and being reliant on those memories of being loved and being so at peace and family. Ann and I feel that peace and that family only a little child knows so well. That is what it feels like with Ann and being with her for 20 years being partners and best of friends. It is a shame and death to not recognize it as the most beautiful love in this world. It is something you do not want to ever trade in or replace. It is very hard to replace such a feeling or such an experience. Now try watching a combat scenario where a vicious attack by thugs or enemies is occurring; nonstop and the feeling of being there and helpless.

Little girls are really cute and hugging your little thing and having her smile back and love you is just a dream. Our little girl would be so adorable. I however, would hug that little girl and tell her I am always there and I will protect her. To not cry and how daddy would never leave her or let anyone harm her. Then I would ask why she was crying and if I can do anything, even stay up all night. Why? Because she asked and because she is a little human being who is scared in this world and holds onto me and sees me as the guy who rocks her to sleep and carries her when she is tired or hurt. Then when she gets older, she will have this image in her mind of this man who used to ask her “hey little girl, why you so sad and so blue tonight? Won’t you tell me so I can make it go away?” That is not far from the story of Ann and me. That is the type of relationship we have and how close we are. That is what we aspired to and what 20 years of being partners is about. It is hard to explain and even harder when you have or must go into battle or win World War III as partners only to find our lives turned upside down or into a tragedy.

See, I would not let someone so precious slip my radar and her crying unanswered. She is scared and she has nobody. It is my job to ask her why or here her complain and I know I can do it and get it right because I try hard to be perfect. She thinks I am perfect also. That little girl relies on me and she knows deep in her heart that she is daddy's little girl who is so much older than what her age dictates her to act. When she grows older, she will say, my dad is perfect and I know this. He used to talk to me and make me stop crying and I never knew how he did it or why but he did and I love him. Now how precious is that and how much would most little girls pay for that little bit of life? You see, when you have that kind of relationship with someone, they never forget and they cherish you only with the pureness of their hearts and the mental clarity of knowing just how special you treated them. But you do not notice it because it is your little friend and little girl who needs you and who dreams of this figure who can make her sense that memory we all know. What is so special? She is just your little girl and that is what it is all about.

Some people would recognize that and go and see that little girl and kneel down and act stupid. Ya know, play with her dolls and make her laugh. She knows who that is and she knows that is her real friend. Even a little kid, someone you can lie and cheat so easily knows that guy and knows he will always be there and never give up on her, never. He listens to her, plays with her, and makes her so happy she falls asleep in his arms and dreams about one day when she grows up and can be like him. Now you understand through her eyes and what a true partnership is like.

Well, little girls can dream because she will never be like him, never. Why? Because he is the sun, the moon, and the sky; and when it falls; life fall also. That little girl, she now has to go to her room and play with her dolls because mommy can not and someone took daddy away. See, you have to reach down deep inside and even if your body tells you to lay down and accept that creeping sleep, there is a backup voice a backup system where you begin to float and see things out of body, then the voice begins to scream commands and orders like a demon on a hunt and invincible by both thought and physical attributes. It wants to kill and destroy and it wants to protect the body it was trapped in. That is the power and that is the sensation. You do not feel any fear; you produce it by billions of calculus and careful moves. Everything is clear and vivid and nothing expelled is worthless or a loss. Things move so quick it is always a win.

So look at that little girl and ask her why she is scared of her only friend now. Maybe her only friend likes to scare her because they have to do what they do? Maybe that little girl can block out those memories when she gets older and they become vague, not concrete yet. There is nothing to say and you do not know if it is real or not because you are only partners. Something happens when you are so happy and you see it, hear it, and witness it; it changes how you see your best friend and it changes how you see life or your life. There is no value to keep or be selfish about now and you just want to do your best and try your hardest. Try so hard you want to cry but you know that can never be. Maybe her only friend is so mean, she has to go to her room and lock the door and be by herself. Yes, she has to be by herself because her friend is busy and she is also. Right now he is meaner than hell and right now, so is she. So she just goes in her room and plays with her dolls or does those things little girls do until her wishes for a real friend returns to her and rocks her to sleep so that the next day, she can come along and also play. See, that is what a real friend is, right little girl?

Ann, I have loved you all along and have kept this hidden and repressed. I think you know this. We would not be here had we made mistakes before. I am not only so proud of you, I am not even able to tell you or express to you the joy you have been in my life and how much joy you bring to my life. I am not able to explain this love and the feelings we have for each other, what we have been through and how it has changed us. It made us better people and too us from freshmans to senior stature very quickly. I have never let go of your image or memory and I always carry that special part of you with me, sometimes the wind reminds me and a little voice in my head brings me back to the time we met and all the good times we had. If it means anything then I wish you to know this and to know I am not able to express how I feel but I want to be everything you have striven to become in my world. I cannot and refuse to overlook or discount that gift and it might amaze people or make them angry to disapprove, but we have set out with a plan and a reason in this world to achieve what dreams are about and what life is worth living for. There is no way a 38 year older and a 46 year older did what we have accomplished; but worse off is the fact that we did.

Cyber Warfare HQ

If people knew what this kind of love is about, they will know how you will never want to leave the side of the person you love and cherish with every waking minute of our life. Thank you Ann, thank you my love... "And I'll become, what you became to me..." (Sound familiar)