YOU DO NOT BRING ME PEACE OF MIND ANN AND NEVER HAVE: NOW THE STORM IS GETTING BIGGER

2/6/2009 9:05:04 PM Dear Ann Coulter; I am not going to spend my life cursed by anger, jealousy, ruinous hate, arguing incessantly, hearing false stories and allegations, hearing excuses from you, listening to VIP dinners and parties, etc... It makes me want another woman and while I dream of another woman; you fly off into the distance and give speeches or have some new party and cocktails with people you either do not care about or meeting up with. Meeting up with someone makes it even worse. You have changed and turned into a different person where our lives are too different and not easily in harmony. Your life is cursed with bad karma and negative vituperation. You know when you have a keeper and you know when you have a pain in the ass or a throw away. I have told you to make a choice and ask me more a specific amount of time; I refuse to be angry or jealous for the rest of my life and am actively seeking another woman. The storm is coming and the reckoning is coming; out run it or out chase it but do not curse and run in it as you have. I told you these two months ago and nothing has changed or ever changes but you want this fairy tale; and hang on to this fairy tale then blame your staff.

If you read this Ann; you know that I know you best. You are better than Rush at this game and one of the best liars or sneakiest in this world. I thought I had found peace in 2002 finally in my life. I thought moving on and leaving you in 2002 brought me peace. Now this storm is back. The pollution of drama is back at it again nipping at your soul and peace of mind. I never did find peace with or without you; you are so sneaky and so good but you live your life through me. I can have a normal life and enjoy happiness and a peace of mind with a normal girl. It is scary with someone of your intelligence and capability; you are the best liar and if not the most sneaky. That in itself is enough to not want you but you asked me to trust you and believe you; and it has been very difficult. It is scarier because you are such a good liar and it does not bring peace of mind. The storm you have in your life will swallow you up. You do not and never have listened to me yet you hang on with your nails while the storm blows you away. It is not the right formula Annie, you should have quit when the storm was brewing with me.

I am beginning to see you all as dirt. You have money and power in your veins and now you want a fairy tale. I hate jackasses as a general rule but you turn it into intimidation. It intimidates me and I do not know how to fight you and you bring me no peace of mind whatsoever, you never have. But your life has gotten worse and you have said you worked really hard and were very subservient; you deserve this. But your life has gotten you massive abuse and you need to stop; the injuries left you silent. Your abusers told me what they did and "indirectly raping" you. Women hide this because their husbands reject them. Boyfriends get jealous when you call it rape and the date calls it flirting. I have warned you of a pending storm that is growing. I find little peace with you now and you blame your staff. I honestly think you are doing this purposely; I honestly think you want to drive others crazy. If any other reason, to find love and to keep it; to be loved.

Ann, you know something is wrong and has been when I grow sick of you and angry. You seem to push me towards hookers or the arms of another. The worst part is you seem to think we will have a good life together because you tried so hard and worked so diligently. You now have money and power in your veins; you will not give it up. I cannot blame people I do not know but you do and you claim they did this to your life. I do not even know the men who contacted me about you being their love interest or sex interest; you throw it on my lap. I am getting worse. When have I ever been at peace with you, can you tell me? You are the sneakiest alive. I do not think you are built for love; more money and power. Those people are dirt and jackasses.

The reckoning is coming Ann. I can see it and feel it; I feel you jealous. There is anger and hatred in your and now our life. The storm is coming Ann and you can either buckle down or stay inside. Instead, you run around naked and try to out chase it or run into it cursing. I see that as nuts. Why the hell are you flying around and having VIP dinners when I am having an affair and professing love to another woman? Can you tell me? Then you blame your staff and tell me you are quitting? (I am trying to leave you... seriously) In case you have not or did not notice, you have major league personal problems, major league. A major storm is coming if it did not already but money and power is in your veins. I see your types as dirt but you want that fairy tale and push people into the arms of hookers or someone else; then you blame them or work. With this storm and reckoning coming, you now want love and the perfect life. You keep thinking you will outrun or out chase it. You think you can curse it down or run into it. In my eyes, you are a ditzy mess and you will drive the next guy as crazy and I spent 20 years with you. God forbid someone who just meets you. The reckoning and storm is coming Ann, are you nuts or insane?

To make it worse, you now have CPAC and YAF who book you up for the rest of the year and next year so they can add coal into the fire and rip you life apart. They have shown ingratitude and a total disregard for families of terror plots and the soldiers who capture them; least yourself. So while you and they have this lovers quarrel and are introduced to more rotten green sperm; the money making corruption and scandal of political influence rolls on with you hanging on with your busted up nails to the only love you found in life and what gave you power and your legacy. If you are not able to recognize problems by now; them you are a lost cause. Not many men will jump in there with the level of negative emotion you have swarming and the tornado pulls others down to the bottom.

So while you complain and cry to me endlessly; I am overwhelmed. I do not know these people and I cannot blame them. You tell me to order them and tell them they are fired. So I did, must you loose your marriage also? I cannot blame them. It is becoming very difficult to believe you or stay with you. It was well beyond the pale months and even years ago; now it is just ongoing. Simple basic things such as happiness are impossible. A comfortable peace of mind is impossible. A life with small pleasures and small appetite is impossible. Why in the world are you blaming your pundit career and life? Do you not hate it and hate what it has become? CPAC and YAF have not been able to get you on anything; but when the opportunity arrives; they will be able to write your biography and blackmail you. This is the book Lisa began and got so wrong; they were apologizing to me and I am ready to alert the authorities to shut them down and make sure they never had a political career again.

You need to take back our life. Not share it with people who ruin it while they tell me I am bothering you and them. They are pretending as if they have given you life and made you or are married to you. I am sure if this keeps up, you will be forced to choose or accept one of their "ideal mates" or "Mr. Conservative" as you told me. Whether he is black or white; the situation he is coming into is psychopathic and hinders on this blackmail part you said and the secret dinners and parties. I am sure this is what the murder plots involved; some nut. I have been through thick and think with you and have about had it; you have cursed our life with arrogance and a sex kitten act which you cannot erase.

We can retire and live a life of happiness. We can finish what I set out to accomplish. Instead, you want to run with CPAC and YAF while I am trading you in for someone who might bring me more happiness and less fortune. Soon, my injuries will scar and it will include you as well. I told you to end all agreements and get your life in order so you can live out and finish life happy or content about what happened. I am content now, even with you and it is a bad feeling. So you are flying around doing speeches and VIP dinners, claiming it is good clean fun, while your life love is having an affair and plotting his life with other women. Worse you blame it on your staff; I told you to get rid of them because they are the ones adding coal into the fire and that fire is burning uncontrollably. They make a lot of money and have a lot of power and influence due to you; so I understand the feeling of being used.

You have made a lot of money and gotten a lot of power from me and my military life. You politicians are scum and need to be flogged daily. You show total disregard to victims of terror plots; providing aid and comfort to some who are positively identified; and then you blatantly show disregard on the capture and medical care of those who had to catch them. So I have written to CPAC and YAF and I hope the authorities can pick up on how they are corrupt and what kind of people we are dealing with. As far as your life, if you want to live it angry, broken, heartbroken, upset, and filled with regret over menial and stupid antics; then do so, but when you came to me and laid your head on my shoulder and spoke of the years we spent together; I believed in you and trusted you. I felt I knew you and knew the same person I had met twenty plus years ago when I was young and you were nobody.

Are you still a nobody and does it make you happy to know I am nobody with you? You have brought me emotional grief and vituperation, daily anger management sessions; and I am not even the enemy. I was here to be your life protector and like a big brother whom you wanted and wish to go to battle with. We never made it because I was kidnapped but now, it is tragedy everywhere. There is nothing left to speak honorably for or against. You have to recognize danger and problems and you have to recognize bad staff or when those around you become your enemies. I have tried to teach you about life and protect you through the years and now I feel as if I am a failure and hate you more and more for no reason.

I give up and maybe I made you feel the same way over the years; it has not been easy. I feel like a bad person and an angry and jealous one. That is not a good spouse and not a good person to have in my life. I just give up and walk away; wishing to not be caught up in this storm. It will leave life long scars and bad memories; trust me. I just give up on you and like always become frustrated with the entire reality. All the drama, all the dating and dinners, all the fund raisers, all the hard work; there is nothing to show for it unless you can stand proud with someone if anyone. I am on the borders for a reason and like always, I just give up; I do not want it anymore.