At some point, your snail pace and catch up with fixing will hit the reality that for every problem I fix, two are magically appear. I will repeat my frustration, "please do not mess up my 500 million dollar case" and it is very big. You have not been a very good help or a very good assistant. You also do not plan, it is I who plan and if you keep running against me and what I am doing; I will get to the point of worry as I am now and simply tell you to "give me a percentage" of what you expect from this. So far you have not told me what you want from me, what per cent, or anything; I am in the dark completely. Meanwhile, I have to plan my legal case, your legal case, and a lot of problems related to your association or "special relationship" with me. One day is works fine; the next it crashes and flip flops. You get attacked daily and it makes me jealous, unhappy, and disconnected with you. Then you tell me I will never leave or you will never leave. Ann, listen to me; you have pushed the envelope and taken me to my ends; this will be at least the fourth time; you still claim it is not your fault and this mess was because of the intervention; I agree with that. So what do you suppose I do, shoot them or dump wine on their head? How about you drive them crazy and make their head explode? How about you get them off my god damn mission ASAP and stop cozzying up wit them? I have a checklist of what I needed done and what is needed for this to work and so far; there are not much you can brag about. I do not even know whose side you are on anymore; all I know is what I can do for you and try to make it a happy outcome for you if I can. I cannot change what happened or erase the bad memories; nor can I fix your life. The question is if I cannot, than can you? I am not able to be more unhappy but am sucked into this and cannot be more unhappy with you also. That is the problem, the same legal case and team; but it will destroy our relationship. I am drafting plans without you already. 
My plans after this are to oppose you based on your actions and my demand for these people to be off this mission and out of satellite warfare or the "most exclusive poker table." You seem not to understand the extent of the problem or who is the problem. We cannot win under these circumstances and the communist will take the first strike and have. Now you must do diligence to get rid of them or bring them to justice; but evaluate your own sanity and predicament. The speech in CA and NV was not important and had very few audiences; but the damage is immense. Then I am at that break point or already beyond it; I know it is the YAF and CPAC but do you? You are the one who told me and I am asking you now if you know it or care? Why the hell am I asking you if you care when the murder plot is on you? I take responsibility because I was targeted first; but you roused them in the mid 1995 by trying to scare them off or tell them hands off; so they lost it and attacked. Now things are different. It makes no sense, even during an intense battle, to walk deeper into thin ice; they do and now all of you are trapped and do not know what to do or say. All I can do is offer you 25 to 50 per cent; what are you offering me or can you offer anything but anger, hate, and a lot of bad memories? The best part is their memories and where it is leading; so I applaud you for that; can you stop holding hands with Floyd and tell me how they have you captive? I know it is him, do you? I know it is YAF, do you? I know it is CPAC and the Irish/Catholics; but do you? That is who it is on this end and behind all this also; but do you know or care? Remember who does the planning and long term strategy; do you want to be part of it or keep arguing; we need closure also. At least things have finally slowed down or are shutting down; maybe you also. This is a 500 million dollar case. Take a whiff and a hard look; more trouble, more legal problems, more anger, more discontent, more unhappiness, and you conservatives and Republicans were just punished badly. Do you all deserve it? You tell me. Do you know how long it will take to resolve this case? Work on those who took you captive and why; I like the memories they have and how they will be locked up for the rest of their life; I love that part and want them to burn in hell; so do not come near me if you are nuclear and will do harm to me. Also, do you honestly think I will accept you as is or with all this baggage? If I am rich; I will give you 30 days to fix everything and that will be all the time you will have; you waited until the last minute for over 3 years and are little help to your own attempted murder case or slander case. I do all the worrying and you do all the speeches, dinner, and partying; who does the dirty work again? Who is having all the fun again? Who has to worry about all the legal work again? Who is getting one hell of a bargain and outcome from this? Now ask why you are so unhappy and think deeply. None of this helped your 3, 5, or 10 year gains, none. It is just monotonous aimless and disgusting. You are at their mercy while you wish to be in or part of my plans; what kind of contribution do you think you will be in 5 or 10 years? I worry about you because you are older now and your needs are different; my feelings for you have changed but I worry and care. I do not accept excuses or wish to listen to anybody; thus, forced you to answer yes or no and you kept saying I "misjudged" or crucified you; yet you cannot comprehend the problem and the gigantic mess I have or must deal with; you love it. So do you think I want them to get away after what they did to you? What they did to me? What I love is the searing pain and how trapped they feel; do not let them enjoy one moment of your life; they are advertising this and it will bite you badly. This will change your future with me and heavily against you. I understand you are stuck and trapped; but this is my fault sort of; it is our legal case and our victory; why should that destroy you and me or us? I admit, I am the one who was kidnapped and made your life worse or miserable. Okay, I am guilty but not gutless; I will destroy them and lock them up for life. Trust me. Everybody knows who fault this was and who ruined your life because you waited for me and had to cope with this.
They keep storming into this mission. They keep trying to sit at the most exclusive poker table or attack satellite warfare. Worse, you keep luring them in deeper and over their head and it is the most uncomfortable feeling. The question is how do I get them out of my life in 5 or 10 years with or without you? That is the answer you need to bring me; how do I end or remove your horrendous life from my low key and protected one? You have nothing to lose waiting; I have everything to loose waiting; how do you make me whole or happy again when I demand them off this mess and mission immediately? The longer, the more mad I get and the more I want heads to roll. We have caught and exposed them for who they are; what more can you do? So why are you taking more vacations and doing more photo oops with them? I do not intend on being single in two or five years; do you? You better hurry up; you must have a sure thing plan or some escape I have no idea about which can erase and put your life back together. You don't care and they don't either; that is why it is murder. Who travels around the US and Canada with their enemy or murder plot and has a blast while ignoring the man she claims to love and have sex with for 20 years? Who is taking advantage of the matter or has a lot to offer? In two or three years, I am not going to be single; understand?
MAYBE SOMEONE CAN ADVISE YOU OF 5 OR 10 YEARS; MAYBE MY NEW LAWYERS CAN FIGURE OUT... SO LURE HTEM IN AND LAST ROCK N ROLL; LET'S ME SHOW THEM THE LAST SHOOTING MATCH ON THIS DECREPIT EARTH AND HOW CLOSE IT IS TO THEIR FUTURE. THEY SEEM UNAFFECTED IT CAN BE THEM ON THE RECEIVING END. SO I GUESS THAT IS WHAT I WANT AND WHAT YOU WANT ALSO; THEN BRING THEM IN AND SUCK THEM IN DEEPER, THAT WAS WHY I WAS HEADED TO CANADA AFTER ALL THOSE YEARS OF ABUSE.
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