WHY WOULD ANN FEEL JEALOUS, HURT, BAD, OR UGLY? WHY MAKE SOMEONE JEALOUS OR TAKE IT OUT ON LOSERS?

8/13/2008 4:43:02 PM

TIME LINE AND LIST OF PERSONAL LIFE

• 1987 to 1989: very close relationship and almost marriage to high school sweetheart (very intimate relationship)
• 1989: began relationship with Ann (mostly friendship and study buddy, talked and shared information all the time)
• 1990: US Army: met and dated Amanda, graduate student 7 years older while in the Army and stationed in Georgia. Amanda became very upset in 1993 after moving back to Virginia and said to “find a girl up there.” (No vehicle and was not able to see her that much, also grad school was deafening)
• 1993 to 1998 nobody of interest and was looking very hard to find a perfect date or someone decent to hang out with (not a girl in sight worth consideration)
• brief relation with Stephanie Dela Cruz (who was also seeing several other guys)
• First apartment and female roommate Cassandra (Cassandra begins to show interest and begins to court for marriage. To counter, her blonde “Marilyn” friend is given attention and interest and she sleeps with her and begins to ask for dinner dates. Cassandra looks just like Ann also but a totally different personality. Cassandra is a dope head and drug user and this becomes a big turn off.
• began to meet girls online and chat or talk to them, the worst people you will ever meet (dated one who was grossly obese and beyond recognition and vowed never again)
• met Carey Ann down at the beach and after a romantic one day fling decided not to call her again; (this was the best candidate out of all these women and she was in the National Guard)
• met Angie who was a volleyball player at Marymount University (dated for a month and after 3 sleep over and romantic dates, decided a serious relationship was not going well)
• met the best looking and most athletic woman out of all, a beauty queen named Tanya (turns out Tanya had ovarian cancer and was sex starved due to operations and was in a rush to marry before the disease got worse. She was not able to have kids. This was a very 1 month romantic relationship but the decision to end it was based on the cancer.)
• Spoke to maybe 200 women or more online and was disgusted with their personality, looks, the online lying, fakes, posers, and kooks everywhere.
• Began getting upset and frustrated with the quality of women and begin frequenting the beach every weekend. Meet Lori (who looks exactly like Ann – bleach blonde, angelic face, perfect in every way) on the first day and ran into her right at doorway and flagged her down before even entering. After fight between Lori and another girl from New Jersey, begin dating Lori.
o Trying to move to the beach and working for Fed Ex as a private contractor. The goal is to live with and marry Lori, Ann never showed up or gave any indication she was interested.
• Ann was asked if she wanted to talk and she said no. She was asked repeatedly to meet and even meet Lori. She said no. She was asked if she approved of Lori and approved of the effort to marry her. She said yes. Lori was so pretty and so perfect in every way. She acted like a friend and never showed any hurt or pain. No indication of pain or hurt, only approval and well wishes. She said she was married or something but was not worried at all. There was nothing to suggest she would do what she did.
• After the attacks, she was told to never talk to us again, it was so painful and hurt so much that you only want to find that girl and hold her. Nothing more and no one else, so she was cut out and told this was such a bad experience. It was the final hour and she had to marry and quickly if she was going to beat her biological clock. Hurry, I am going to hurry also. I think this will be the real thing and meant to be good luck and hurry up. She never said anything about whom and what was stalking her and now going to kill him. Someone was stalking us big time and she was told about this and she was panicking.
• From 1995 to 2002 she was being told about this harassment and stalking by what seemed to be the left. Now it was still happening and looked like the right. She was being told everything and asked to help us. Even the FBI was told this was Al Qaeda and she got day in and day out reports. Maybe she was terrified at the time and did not want to take a chance, but she never showed up. From 1998 to 2002 the stalking and attacks were unbearable and so painful.
• Traveled around the USA and Canada and went to bars, dance clubs, strip clubs, concerts, and every social event possible. Was able to meet over 200 women from over the USA and some were gorgeous. Was keeping Tina (Hooters Girl, Savannah, GA) as a potential mate after she publicly displayed tremendous attraction; Dallas in Maine (who had 3 kids but was gorgeous); Kristine in Columbia, South Carolina (never dated) and was going to ask Lori if she would like to be engaged or be in a serious relationship. Ann did not show up and was no longer showing up or up to something. We lost communications and it seemed as if she did not care and approved of Lori who was beyond perfect, smart, sexy, elegant, and classy. Lori was so aggressive and publicly excited and professing her love for everybody to see. (It was unreal the things she was doing and the level of commitment from such a beauty queen and the best looking girl at the beach. She looks identical and to the tee as Ann in 2003 on TV but 13 years younger) Lori was working 3 jobs and trying hard to stay at the beach, told her to find a place for us that winter and she said okay.
• Lori does not show up in the winter as planned (Arrest by federal authorities due to the events the previous summer). Lori scored a 15 on a scale of 1 to 10 and her beauty is paralyzing.
• After speech came back and health returned, the problem was how emotionally damaged around other women. Began to test social skills online and began to meet a flood of married women.
• Romantic interest with Christy who was separated and stressed over an abusive husband (she was told that she had to seek divorce before any type of romance or dating, no and if or buts. She had disturbing stories and wanted intimacy and a man immediately due to the insanity of her ex-husband and she cried out for escape. Again, she was told to finalize the divorce. Things were weird and she was asked to chill out and end one relation before another one. Begin to be friends with another married woman who was the smartest woman in the world and the best personality ever encountered. She had two kids and was married. )
• This was not infidelity or an affair. She spoke of experience in marriage and a professional career. She spoke of ups and downs. She began to fall in love and expressed her wish for a better man and how her career forced her to marry prematurely and only for child bearing. She was happy but she did not find the love of her life. It got romantic and she began to hint of a divorce and a serious relationship, remarriage. The problem again was the two kids and the distance. It did not feel right but she was very supportive of our relation and confusion with girls. She encouraged dating more girls and Valerie and Julia were now love interests. This was strictly a pen pal relationship to a married woman in California who had advanced degrees (it became romantic) and an offer for marriage from Carla. Carla was also from a military family, had the best personality of all the girls, had an open mind, a very nice person, and advanced degrees. She was close to being a MENSA member.
• Began dating Valerie and then Julia. Julia looks like a Russian model. Valerie is worthless and such a mess. Julia is too strong and too set in her ways and has to be pampered like a European model.
• Carla tries to be helpful but looses interest because she feels betrayed and cheated on. She senses only friendship and her dream man disappointed with her. She is not able to respond to the beauty of these young girls and offers a cold shoulder.
• relocation to Canada and border
• begin the final project but failed in finding a personal life and wife before sitting down to complete this; just utter frustration and disappointment; a life of having women throw themselves at you turned into total despondency and idea that will never marry or find true love. Lori is nowhere to be seen and the search for her from 2005 to 2007 failed. Depressed and despondent over personal life failures, begin writing book and feel anger and humiliation over the years.
• Met some girls online and just friends with them, pro surfers and totally cool. Begin exposing the left and the campaign to win back life, future, and love lost. Really upset with the events that occurred in 2002 over Lori and the imprisonment which tore her apart and made her lost. Her former employers had not seen her, she was not going to the beach anymore, and she must have moved on and got married.
• 2007 to 2008 massive amounts of this book show up and a lot of interest is placed on the cyber warfare and satellite warfare part, nothing like it had ever been seen.
• Ann finally makes contact then calls and tells the story which nearly causes a fainting spell. Life shut down. She knows every single detail and when it happened (Just like the movie “Some Kind of Wonderful” in 1988.) That movie was talked about all the time and she got the idea from that movie. It was a 20 year secret which she kept thinking she would intercept or win back any attempt to steal this love. She was not hurrying for some reason. She was waiting to see if they would try something or sabotage our love life. She was making sure they did not send a spy or tried. She said it hurt so badly to sit and wait and lied about her true feelings and what it did. (Have no idea, it is all secrets) She had felt she could win back this love or stop any marriage but now, she was very pained. The story was unbelievable and missing 7 years which only bits and pieces are known at this time. It dates back 20 years and she dropped clues everywhere. Nobody will put that much effort and destroy it or let it go without a fight, nobody.


PROBLEMS

• 7 missing years is a lot of time
• In those 7 years, there is a paper trial and it is appalling
• She says after 1998 she declared war because of this partnership and love
• It sounds too good to be true but she was there from 1989 to 2002 almost like a spouse but was treated like a best friend. Nobody knew about this love or interest, honest, it was a complete secret
• She is not a liar but she is swimming in lies; therefore, you must check, verify, and not fall for these tricks
• Some of the things she says was found or perceived to be inconsistent
• Her reputation was destroyed (rightfully or not and she did not defend it)
• A lot of her speeches are taken from “yours truly” such as (impasse, internecine, f@g, f@ggot, lots of dirty words, lots of vulgar thoughts, lots of jokes, etc… the list is endless). She did not steal or plagiarize. Most of the work was heavily criticized as not being well documented or researched. The professors insisted on more references, less individual thinking or writing, more footnotes, and more fact checking or heavy research. Nothing was ever good enough for them and the professors graded most a C or below. Ann sold millions and disproved it was a conspiracy and false.) She did not steal or plagiarize, the voice is mine, the blueprint is mine, the skeleton is mine, but the words and the research is hers. She did and she set out to prove what I had written. She dropped clues all over of how she was at the lectures or the levels of intimacy and closeness. It is 100% verified and authenticated she is and was a 20 year partner.
• Her reputation and credibility is questionable
• Her public image is questionable
• Her bizarre statements are an inside secret and it has to do with being ripped apart, cut down, held hostage, and attack viciously by the left wing and some conservatives
• If in 1998 she sent an email to someone unsuspectingly and that person was a stalker, then all they have to do is a revere email check, an IP lock, and a gate identifier. You can data mine, track gates and routers, shadow electronic signatures, or set network intrusion devices to track her movements online and everything she does or writes. If her stalker got dirt or saw something like a peeping tom, then they will fantasize. They have dirt. They know the most intimate parts of her life.
• She did not handled this well at all and has layer upon layer of lies and deceit
• 1998 to 2002 was terrifying (look at the DC sniper, anthrax, 9-11, and all the reports)
• Is she some prize or arm candy to the highest bidder?
• You either misjudge or take a blind stab, the mind is in a flux and paralyze while she sits on all these secrets. It is best to just forget about it and move on because you cannot tell what is real or not and who is telling the truth.
• Everybody has secrets, everybody and women have sexual ones also; stalkers are vile and this is supposed to be private.
• Nobody has anything on her or any dirt, nobody
• Never a second date, a kiss, a love letter, or any sighting or appearance not professional or business related
• Boring uneventful and 5% excitement of a love life and personal life on paper and in the public sector
• She must fill in the blanks but her record is appalling to clear and defend her reputation. There is propaganda, disinformation, rumors, allegations, and a full effort to destroy and stalk her.
• It almost got him killed and murdered
• She looks callous and insensitive to him while in the 4th quarter and the last 2 minutes of the game; he is also mortally wounded and she appearances cruel and uncaring which is inconsistent to what is being claimed.
• Too many mistakes and bad decisions were made, too weak of positions, and too strong of positions at other times. Not the perfect blend and not a near perfect way to do this. No effort to change, no effort to share, and no effort to do anything… just watch it and comment. Watch him get ripped apart and flirt with the people who are doing it.
• A lot of agendas going on and love is not the theme or on the mind. It sounds like another political stunt. Who knows it will be too late and regrets will sink in.
• Live by the sword, die by the sword
• There are a lot of unanswered complaints, a lot of empty words, a lot of broken promises, a lot of flirting and teasing, a lot of nonsense and no answers or ‘do something” will you.
• We may never know the truth but it makes people really pissed and upset when someone is mortally wounded and their life partner acts disingenuous or totally fake.
• You can add another bad experience and complaints which fall to deaf ears
• Most of the sites that banned were by her recommendations and her close associates. A betrayal, an ambush, and a set up. Always empty words and empty promises or a long wait while screwballs goof around. Always a long wait. Love took 20 years and it is just too hard to believe.
• It is a miserable position and situation to be in. These are lies, liars, insensitive and callous people who only care for themselves. There is no closure and no accounting. People think you are crazy and the ones closest to you are pounding you on the head also. They are the ones starting the rumors and lies. Things are open ended and lies are everywhere. It is a miserable relationship and you are kept in the dark. They do not owe you any answers. They feel they can budge into your life and leave a mess of it. Who cares and so what mentality.
• It is hell. You sit there and have to hang on when nothing makes any sense. You feel this is not a real friend or good person. You are tricked and deceived. They hang you out to dry. Everything is inconsistent. It feels like school girls who smoke dope feel love all the sudden and messed things up royally. She just wants to be loved and has to find love in the world.
• You wonder if they have a soul or care about what others think or feel. They do not care about your needs or what you want or need. It is miserable and not a real relationship, it feels like a state sponsored love and the state is actually the spouse. It is not a fulfilling love and too many mistakes, inconsistencies, and doubt exists.
• For a computer scientist or a scientist to accept it is crazy. It feels like a phony science and skipping CD which does not sound right.