Ann, I expect this from a female in her 20s; maybe even 30s. However, I would say you have some really big problems in your life and it involves your social life, drinking buddies, drinking problems, etc... Now it does not take a genius to figure it out but at some point the crying, begging, self guilt, and the distrust just crashes in on you. What next Ann; drinking all night in a jacuzzi? I have not heard that one so far and Hannity said the liquor flows all day for you and you accept each one or each challenge. It does not take a genius to figure out what is going on there either; so I am glad you are having the time of your life; it might impact your life and have a very negative impact. And do you know what the Redeye boys will say? They said, "if you cannot handle the social life; maybe you should leave instead of keeping that face of pain." That is what I heard from your buddy Gutfeld and Levy. I will say this again Ann; check yourself into an alcohol counseling class because you really need to fix a lot of things in your life and it is fueled by alcohol and these socials. All you had to do was go there and give the speech you dreamed about; and now we are arguing as usual and I would not be surprised if a video of you in a hotub emerged. Ann, they cannot tell who you love or are with; who you are intimate with or have been; why? All they do is fight; fight you, fight me, and it is ridiculous. I am not really into fighting over girls, okay. 
Are you happy with yourself and are you enjoying your relationship with me? I know I am not Ann; so what is really bugging you? I expect this from a 20 something ditzy girl; now I look at you and just shake my head. It has to stop Ann and this is why I left; worse is how they parade you around and make it appear how close you are and how much fun you all are having. Every year I say the same thing, "shouldn't you be practicing your speech... what do you do all day long there?" Hannity said you all hang out at the bar and drink; now the Red-eye boys tell me you all stay out late or all night drinking Ann. Now how do you want me to connect the dots of your problems; what I must deal with; and this alcohol and party atmosphere? Do you think it has ruined you or improved your life Ann? They feel your friendship is solid and alcohol fueled; even have pictures and videos to prove this. Ann, connect the dots and you tell me why they are stalking you and making my life hell? I do not see any of you policing this and I get reports all the time about how wild; out of control you are; and how insane this has gotten. There is a code of silence; a complete blackout and secret life there at CPAC. Worse, nothing is policed and the degree of corruption is impossible to fix or police; total insanity. The college kids are not the drunks and drinking; it is you all; look at the video closely. You want to see crazy or totally insane? Ask how long they will be working, ask. So I got that and the usual dirty flirting on film; thanks Ann. Are you all on drugs or just them? I do love you and I know you love me to death; that is also why this is so hard Ann. Really. 
How do you think our relationship would be if you just keep it business; go there and give your speech and ditch the losers? Would they call me and tell me you and them are engaged; to get lost; and come in my home and harass me 24 hours? This is what I got; along with you telling me about stalkers, murder plots; and how they are sneaking up on you and trying to stuff you in a trash can; and you told me you were scared but had a gun ready and I even helped you or advised you on what the best techniques and strategies were. I am reluctant Ann; to trust you and to have that warm heart I used to have or know; I really do think you are in a period of denial or have a serious alcohol problem; the level and the amount I was told you drink yearly. Now all you do is beg, cry, and look shocked; why? There is something seriously wrong with you or is it me Ann? Worse, I am so tired of this and they keep hounding me or sticking up for you; telling me to leave, leave you alone, and how I am not welcomed and have been warned. It looks to me like you are having a great time and so are they with you; not making their life hell or explosing them. I studied the faces and I looked at the atmosphere; it is very social and hot tub level; the alcohol is flowing and the gathering of alcoholics and juveniles are bright red; take a bow? So when do the ho tubs and the drinking parties end? You are guilty; by association. You plead to me about your associations and social life? 
Ann: I have to listen to this every year and in 2009; you had the decency to spend CPAC talking to me and showing me around; all I got was upset with this and I do not appreciate it. How many others are lured into this or sucked into it Ann; how many? I am confused Ann; what do you want me to do or say? I should just open my arms and accept you? I should just take you for your word while you tell me not to worry or I have nothing to worry about? Is it working Ann? Why am I worried, is it me or you? I am so sick and filled with toxic pollution now; about you, them, and all of this; all I want to do is escape or some peace; that is all Ann. Do you know how many men have told me you do not have a ring on your finger and are open game? How many times have you told me about the murder plot on your or me verifying they are going to stuff you in a trash can? I want peace Ann; with or without you. I have to listen to sex offenders, labor unions, Irish, child molesters, total stalkers, and lunatics in my life, in my home, and it sometimes is so overwhelming; around the clock. They are that bent on destroying you and if it was not for this; I would not be here or lingering. I made an ultimatum; are you going to get help for your drinking problems or drinking buddies; your social life? Why do I keep hearing and have to deal with this "singles club" Ann? Why? Even SE Cupp, who was there said she was the first to leave you all and your group Ann; are you happy now? Do you think they care enough to put your life and our relationship back together Ann? 
Here is the part I do not like Ann. Look at what is going on in my life right now; right now Ann. Do you stay out and drink when your mom is dying or when your dad is on his last leg? Maybe your heart is with me and maybe it is only business as you tell me; but why has this gotten this way; why? I was told total lies and made to feel insecure; repeatedly by all of you while you begged me. I got egged repeatedly and made to feel as if you took your anger out on me; then you blamed them. Total insanity. Worse, none of is policed and I am advised to get out of the kitchen or stop socializing; leave. Thank you so much Ann; I need this and to investigate this every single year; I could be spending my time looking for a job, a safe place, or worrying about other things don't you think? I am glad you are okay though; and I am glad you survived all of this; but will they, will they Ann? What next a jacuzzi or maybe some wild night of partying with your rapist? This is high school and college life you are living; not reality. When you surround yourself with lunatics and traitors; do not expect a happy ending or a desirable outcome; agreed? Did I mention how they F their kids and are sex offenders? They even rationalized it and wore it as a badge of honor; the ultimate control. Do you have any idea how much time I waste on this stuff Ann, do you? It feels the same as swimming in a riptide; and I have done that sideways before. 
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