THE STATE OF AFFAIRS BETWEEN YOU AND I: I NEED YOU TO HURRY UP IF YOU TRULY WANT THIS: MAR 26, 2009 HURRY UP!

Thursday, March 26, 2009 Let the record show the miserable life Ann has spoken to me about, her exploration of what she can get away with, and the useless reduction she let her life become as a love slave. I am with mixed feelings about her and she worked hard, went against the odds to save me, took on the world and humiliated herself at times, and suffered hardships and harsh treatment with my work. What it did was reduce her to “I am going to burn in hell” and being a love slave because she is desperate for a way out. Hence, the abuse she is willing to take and the ultimate commitment at any cost.

Ann is a poor choice because of her entanglements and agreements which is difficult to end. Unless her eulogy is clear and concise; it will be controversial and define her as a total wreck; a train wreck as they describe it. Ann has shut everything out; not even in touch with danger, her popularity, or how others perceive her (true or not). Nobody who was not neck deep would ever put themselves in this position and had life been different, a better story would be told. Ann is using the hard work and the years of sacrifice for a broken career and a insufferable condition as a selling point to be this love slave. She views it as a “holocaust” like feeling of a wife who stuck it out with her husband who went through even worse or non survivable ordeals of being kidnapped, destroyed, used as bait, brainwashed, attacked by war monger and antiwar groups who were angry and jealous, and eventually forced to move out of the country. We were not willing to be controlled by weirdos

The records will show the liability she is addressing having my work. She offered what most men would not refuse, I was disgusted, she refused to budge, she kept delaying and acting as if she was a real partner who made real sacrifices, and played two sides simultaneously. One side was in total control and did this; the other was mortal enemies and would never get the chance to do this. They got access to us and our life when they play two sides.

Based on my judgments and reports she is of a weird or odd breed. There are two sides collapsing simultaneously and neither wants to lie off (or themselves) because they loose the power base. Corruption is increasing because the spy group and the alliance of evil are buying off politicians (we pay the most and expect more back). They are all trying to hire and pay off politicians; they do not react to doing the right thing. A lot of people were suckered into this or suckered into making decisions which made no sense.

Ann is or was on our side and did have our work but she is trying to be revered and is trying to bang it out also. This arch rival wants to shoot her for treason and betraying them as she penetrated their inner circle and drove them insane. They could not shut her up and make her sit down; they had to include her and let her in the door or else it would signal a major threat. What they did was encircle her and we banged the rear door and raided them in 2008, knocking one after the other out of the mix. They knew the cyber and satellite warfare program was backed by the Pentagon and this was a formidable foe that would cause them a tough fight.

Ann is mixing it up in a corporate and apparatchik system designed by the bankers. She pals around with them and rode it to the top. She made out victorious and controversial not letting go of how this began and why. It drove her insane and to blind rage but like bad fighters; cannot leave the ring. That last fight and final victory. That last rolls of the dice which wins only a name back. Her employers are very evil and bad; but she used it back on them and was labeled as a traitor and a life line. It is an insane situation because the attack on America is so in the final phases. The left wing controls at least 80-90 per cent of the country; 40-60 per cent of the military; and 60-70 per cent of the federal government. She is like them and stuck in this also where her job and life can come crashing the next day.

There is a constant tease and pull back motion by her. She is living on the edge of destruction by two sides. There are two apparatchik systems and one plight. We detected one holocaust and no rescue. If you get caught in it, there is no survival, none. Even the military is not able to hit them and smash them. Flushing them out and confronting their leaders took over twenty years of abuse and undercover work. It has wrecked and caused severe emotional problems and psychological disorders for two people with a wrecked life but the fight of their life.

Ann wants to be grieved. She may not survive this and the only reason why anybody would be with her or stay is because she is desperate and only a tease. It is similar to her going to work, pleasing the bosses, and then coming home to the same man. She comes home to the same man for over twenty years and loves this more than her own life. it is how she sells herself and keeps her husband. If she lets go of this formula, she may wreck and ruin 20 years of work. So she is in a game where she will loose it all because she is playing two sides. It is just like a government employee. It is a hostile work climate and a very hostile condition.

There is a sense of “being put out of misery.” She cannot let go but is forced in this horrible situation with the government. It is courageous nonsense. Her potential allies are angry or have become untruthful. The 2008 raid caused them to hide and wait it out. They know she is a traitor to their cause but does not say for fret of being easily identified. All of them are weirdoes. All of them are in a bad situation and using courageous nonsense. None of them will step down because another will rise right back up. That was their design.

With her marriage, the severe problems, the severe psychological problems have reduced Ann to being a love slave. She is forced to let go but does not because it has so much meaning to her. She has worked so hard and is in his last stretch. She suffered so much in life to hold on and to be victorious in the end with who she began with. So to appease the matter and to qualify on both sides as a tease or to hold on, she is reduced to a love slave, total destruction of self, and massive controversy she is unwinding. She has made clear how she will unwind it and how it will be perfect and new. Until then, her only option is to be a tease, a traitor, a government employee, and a love slave all in one. The crescendo of it all gives the appearance of a infiltrator and a fake.

Ann is not a person who cares. Based on what we went through together and the ordeal of not being able to survive this unleashing wave after wave of retaliation; caring is difficult. Life is drained out of you. It is hard to wake up and talk about it. It is hard to recall the memories or bad memories. The mental blockage and emotional blocks bolster the day to day struggle. There is treason involved and betrayal. It is off the charts insanity. The total destruction of reality and hanging on reduces a partnership to love slaves and keeping it alive. It is off the charts insanity. Everybody is in a bad situation, those who did it and will be arrested, and those who they targeted or tried to recruit. Again, a bunch of weirdoes acting as if they are in control and know what they are doing; they are fighting the battle of the damned and are communists.

Love for Ann has become a bad experience. Where it was once happy, it is filled with bad memories, bad experiences, allegations, rumors, and self destruction while a captive of this barbaric politics. Her goal was to hurt back. Her goal was to contradict them. Ann is considered a weirdo also and raised through the ranks of a worthless and warlike hostile breed of damned souls. They cannot choose a side and neither can she. Her goal is victory in the end and that is blurred. Can she grow again and can this bunch of weirdoes grow with her if they were exploiting her?

Both Ann and Alex are trying to salvage her love life and her image is a death wish. She is forcing another person to choose her until she can clean it up or write her eulogy. She has to write her biology because her enemies were not able to and was cornered. The ordeal fosters a lot of mistrust. The layers of lies indicate a severe personality disorder. The hate of years of battle does not correct itself but instead a cover up is in order. The low quality weirdoes are now trying to find themselves and their voice again. They took a massive hit and a massive loss. They now know that if global warfare broke out, they will not be victorious and cannot match the military might of our forces. They know in military terms and power; they are defeated. This was what they were searching for, preparing a surrender.

Ann wants to be recognized and known as hard working. She worked endless nights and years for her family whom she was helpless for several years. It is not what normal women wish or want from their love life. She wants a chance to be a champion and a change. She wants change but her group resists all change. She is making an offering to the man she loves but it was not received well. This restoration caused her to become a love slave where leaving is worse than staying. She is not unwinding it fast enough and still entangled.

Ann is trying to be a lawyer and cover the liability aspects; someone rejected her and she was not a problem or did nothing wrong. She is on her own and can do what she wishes. It would be helpful is a more helpful person was available or in the driver seat. This is a very stubborn and hard headed person which makes the ordeal tumultuous. However, she is the one plugging into the military and the new system. Her role has been reduced to financial yet she attached so many strings and demands; it caused more problems and a difficult transition. She is negotiating the terms of her victory and union because her role is financial; it is a figurehead and the work is not necessarily hers. She did the work when the enemies smashed it up; they destroyed one copy and she had a second copy.

Ann is or was running with a weirdo bunch in NYC and other urban areas under the ubiquitous guise of conservatives. Telling the truth is a major problem with this group. They want to know who is out there and who they are up against. They refuse to leave and want to survive but resist all changes and truth. They hate champions. There are scams going around and Ann is labeled as a liar. The goal and the intentions are different; she is or can be charged with treason by two sides. Unless she can be on her own, she cannot explain properly to any side.

Her life did get screwed. She did keep her soul and stayed focused. She did maneuver through weirdoes. She rode the government system and formed alliances with the damned and this huge army too big to fail. Thus, when they fall apart and when we fall apart; she falls apart twice. The whole world is falling apart and she wants to be a hero but is reduced to a love slave. She feels rejected by the entire situation. She does feel fake and guilt but says where the crime is? Doing the right thing and reality is difficult and she has not unwounded or disclosed why. She has to provide the biography or some explanation if she is going to unwind it; maybe she has a death wish and cannot? She is in misery and has to figure out how to end it honorably? She is still unwanted and a pariah, her self defense mechanism.

We got screwed, there was no liability. What liability and backup system was miserable and inadequate? Those in charge were scolded and criticized heavily. We hope they make the necessary changes and get their act straight. If there is a happy ending and a liability system, a backup, then this was it. The entire world and country is falling apart while people are losing their life savings. So all that work may be for nothing and that backup might be futile.

Lying to the liberals is a weapon while honesty is avoided and pretends to induce guilt. People lie when engulfed by a mob or trapped in a death trap. The enemy lies as a weapon and an offensive use; not as self defense to prevent destruction. This enemy destroys and wants to be known as unstoppable, an army too big to be stopped as the damned. They win many battles with lies and propaganda.